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SUPERFICIAL

2012-01-25T19:23:00.000-08:00

I don't get how people do it. Who actually possesses the ability to manage life, school, internets, and other stuff? I don't think it's possible. Needless to say, writing or posting hasn't been my highest priority, but so be it. It can't always be. I'm not superhuman, are you?

Well, before I go on typing this mindless article, I wanna introduce two things; my blog's semi-unofficial 2nd birthday, which took place sometime in late December of 2009 (Happy neglected and belated birthday to you, Satellite Heart!), and of course, the coming of the New Year! 2012 feels so futuristic but actually not really. It sure sounds cool. I just hope we all make it through the end of the year so we can all cry to the Hobbit and embrace how remarkable the film will be.

Something has inspired me to write down my insight my personal philosophy and approach to style, fashion, and seemingly superficial things in relation to individuality and self-expression, and what it means to be an Empowered Dresser. Particularly this age-old "accusation" of sorts common among teenage girls (and women alike) of seeking attention through dressing a certain way. And I have two responses to this; it isn't about attention, it's about being courageous and comfortable with yourself. And second, what's wrong with attention, if it's not negative?

It goes without saying that I stand out in a crowd. I have bright purple hair, often in an extremely curly and frizzy mess, sometimes flat ironed, or in correlation to right now, in some vintage-y barrel curls. And I dress weird. I have this compulsive habit (it's almost a problem) of buying used clothes that no one on the face of the planet would ever want to wear just because of how blindingly ugly it is. I'm fascinated. So when I step out of the house and roam the halls of my high school, probably looking less than desirable in the eyes of the opposite sex, and like I'm fresh out from a terrible episode of Full House, it attracts attention. But as I relish in my obsession with hideous clothes and my obnoxious hair, I am also in a comfortable state of mind. Like when I found this ridiculous looking peacock Christmas tree ornament that I suddenly had the urge to wear on my head, I did. Not because I necessarily wanted people to gawk at me and ask me why the hell I was wearing a plastic bird on my head, but because it was just something that I liked. And by god, nothing is going to stop me from wearing a damn peacock on my head if it is going to make me happy.

I won't even doubt that people's creativity is held back by so many ridiculous factors, that in the big scheme of things don't actually matter. People are far too concerned with what is "socially acceptable" and what is in the realm of "normal" rather than actually following through with what they truly want to do. I, for one, am completely fed up and disgusted with what society tells me I should be or well, and I think it's stupid that this sort of pressure even exists. The world would be a much different place is people were free from this nonsensical eye of judgement, and it could either be for better or for worse. What I genuinely don't understand is why people don't jump at any opportunity to please themselves or to be happy.

I find this sort of relief through making myself look like a weirdo. Not because I want to be "cool," "hip," or "different," but simply because it's what makes me happy, what makes me feel like a strong person, and because I'm not afraid of shocking anyone. I've come across people before who have told (told, because apparently this is something they know for a fact) me that the only reason why I dress the way I do, or do anything I do for attention from people. I never bother arguing with these sorts of statements, because I know they're not true. And whoever is making this judgement is obviously not worth my time. And who doesn't like to be complimented on the totally rad coordinating eyeshadow/belt buckle color scheme you're rocking that day?

Freedom to wear whatever you want is largely attributed to one major factor--having courage. Possessing the courage to stand out, to defy normal social standards, and to basically not give a shit about what anyone else has to say about it is not something that you just come by or you just decide to have one day. If it for you, then congrats and well done. Learning to have courage is also learning to become comfortable with yourself, which is never, ever fully achieved. Everyone still has days in which they're weary of judgement or feeling crappy. But getting the courage and mustering up the strength to free yourself and your creativity regardless of judgement is well worth the struggle of looking for acceptance and wanting to be "normal."

I sometimes felt guilty at times for loving something so based on outward appearance, and what something looks like. It felt shallow at times. But then I realized exactly what fashion and self-expression meant to me, is that it's so beyond superficiality. It's a way of releasing oneself just like any other art form or media of expression, and has a worth more than whether it's pretty or not.

tl;dr: Pleasing people is stupid. Fashion is not superficial. Screw everyone and what they think. Wearing peacocks on your head is not a crime.

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2011-11-23T13:46:00.000-08:00

A super great t-shirt surgery tanktop!

2011-10-25T20:54:00.000-07:00

JUST IN TIME FOR WINTER U GUYYZZZ

But no, really, something possessed me to do this so I had to follow my instinct so just go with it.

before!

after!

You will need;

1 too-big t-shirt
a pair of sissors
pins (or any other device for marking)
a tie (can be string, or t-shirt material)
optional - flare
optional - a cat that gets in the way of everything you do

1. Cut out the neck. Always the first step of any successful surgery. Get rid of that nasty t-shirt neck. You can do this by laying out your t-shirt flat and cutting a scoop through both layers or by cutting through the neck and around it. I usually go with the latter option.

Now, step back and ask yourself, is this me?

2. Cut out the sleeves. Cut from behind the seam, not through it, so you don't have to deal with that nasty unfinished edge. Make sure to follow the curve of the sleeves, don't cut a straight line through them.

You should now be left with this ugly tank top thing.

2. Wtf, Sydne. This looks stupid. Chill out for a second, and unleash your tomato.

(totes unleashing my out-of-focus tomato nbd)

We are going to de-uglify this, first by fixing the straps. Put on your t-shirt and decide how thin you want them to be. Pin (or mark somehow) the straps. This is where you will be cutting them.

5. Thin out yer straps. Lay out your t-shirt. Starting from your pin, cut down through both layers of the shirt and follow the curve of the sleeve.

Good job. Side one complete. Now fold that sucker over and cut away the difference of the other side. (this sounds weird, but look at the picture and you'll get what I mean.)

Okay, Sydne. It just keeps getting worse. It looks like I have flaps. Why are you making me ruin my t-shirt.

No. Shut up and listen to me.

6. Cut down both sides of your shirt. Lay out your shirt again, and from the bottom of the sleeve holes, cut a good 4-6 inches down the sides.

Hold on. After this it gets a little tricky. 7. Cut the back. Start by cutting through the top layer of the back side, about 4-6 inches inward.

Fold over those tabs, and then cut them out, like so.

This should be something like the finished product.

You want the back sleeve curves to be cut pretty inward, because it is going to be gathered and bunched in the end. The less inward the cut, the more bulky will be the back. So get rid of as much material as you need back there as to make sure you don't get a super bulky awkward-looking back.

8. Now tie the back strap together. You can use virtually any string for this part. I used a broken feather necklace. If you don't really have anything, you can use your left over t-shirt scraps.

9. YEEEEAAAAHHHHHHHH

10. Obligatory cat picture because Mia is sooooooo cuuuttteeee

So there you have it, a relatively easy and moderately cute t-shirt surgery in arguably less than ten steps.

The lighting is kinda schizo throughout the pictures, but hopefully everything can be seen clearly and it all makes sense.

I come from the Realm of Less Than Perfect Skin and Nasty Faded Hair and Unswept Floors and Messy Rooms and I do not apologize.

Oh dear, can't you see? It's them it's not me, we're not enemies; we just disagree.

2011-10-02T10:02:00.000-07:00

shirt - pins and needles

skirt - gap kids

shoes - rainbow stitch doc martins. my mom's first pair of doc martins, she gave them to me last month.

tapestry backpack - i made!

radiohead patch - i also made this, and am very enthused about it.

^^ this is my baby Prudie. She took all of my pictures. I want her to be my girlfriend but she's actually gay.

My friend(s) and I are all hipsters, so instead of going to pep rallies, we walk around the parking lots outside the school building and chill and be moody goth kids instead of actually participating in school spirit/society. We are obviously far too cool to do normal things...right?!

Anyhow, I had multiple comments that day that mainly consisted of paranoid christian white kids accusing me of witchcraft, or Hot Topic barf freshmen girls telling me that I looked "kawaii." Who were pronouncing it wrong. That is their problem.

I have no problem being a witch, however, and find the idea to be pretty exciting. Like srsly just give me a two-headed black cat right now that I can name Persephone and Lucifer and brand pentagrams into their foreheads and train to maul people and set people on fire.

Right now.

(jesus I forgot how insanely ridiculously great this music is)

The Flaming Lips // 2 nights in a row.

2011-09-26T16:37:00.001-07:00

If anyone ever has known me, or read my blog previously, they would know that I have this sort of innate soul connection with The Flaming Lips. It's a little unholy, but not really because it is destiny and meant to be so shut up.
Anyways, of course, back in August I saw The Flaming Lips with Primus at Red Rocks Amphitheater in Colorado, and it was ultra badass and I looked like a mermaid. Well, it's kind of a humongous deal when The Flaming Lips come to my town, even though they're from Oklahoma City. It is a big deal.
And it's especially a big deal to me.
So they played for two nights in a row at the Brady Theater. Because I'm ridiculous I went to both concerts.

So these shows were kind of special, because they were my 9th and 10th Flaming Lips shows. Excessive? No. Never excessive. Each time I have laughed and cried like a mofo, and will continue to at each and every accessible show for as long as they live.

I got to take pictures of what I wore the second night, but the first night, no.

T-shirt is from new years 2010-2011, shorts are made from gross pants, and then of course, the mighty Flower Halo, which is capitalized in its own honor for its significance in my life.

Birthday photospam.

2011-09-13T16:18:00.000-07:00

This last weekend was my sixteenth birthday.

Here's how my twenty four hours passed;

Things;

1. I know, dude. My hair color is gross right now.

2. My lip is pierced and now it's annoying to eat.

3. My birthday was on September 10th.

4. I was the birthday elf.

5. That cupcake was about to explode.

6. I heart being ~conceited~

OH AND DID YOU NOTICE THE NICE PICTURES

FROM MY NEW CAMERA

IT'S A NIKON D3100

SAY HELLO EVERYONE

GRRAAGGHHBLLURRBBBFF

2011-09-04T15:14:00.000-07:00

So in the past month, all I've had in mind was, "Ohh, bro, this year is gonna be great, I'll be able to blog AND keep up with school and it will be awesome and it won't be a pain in the ass and it will be breezy and I will be able to do a quick outfit post ERRYDAY and blah blah blah and run on sentences and puke."

I was wrong.

But bear with me! Getting acclimated to all my ~advanced placement~ classes is just part of the process, and right now I'm trying to find ways and methods in which I can cope with the workload, and so far for the past two weeks...it hasn't been so easy. August was a crazy month, and it's likely September will also be a crazy month.
YEAH I KNOW WHO CARES.

hat - old man fedora
weird cropped sweater thing that has been warped by the washing machine - one cent bin somewhere at this store
floral shorts - Fo-Ev 21 (trying to be cool, isn't working)
shoes - VANS
necklace - Forever 21 (yep, gave up)
mom's old Motley Crue pin that I actually did not steal

Um, please pardon the hideous quality of these shots and their lack of interesting subjects + bad lighting. I would say that these aren't my fault because I like to make excuses but in this case yes, for real, it is my fault. In my attempt to remedy this situation I have asked for a fancy camera for my birthday IN HOPE that I can glorify this blog to its fullest extent.

Life update:

My birthday is in six days.
I'm asking for BluRay Lord of the Rings extended edition and a Nikon D3100.
Sparklehorse is my new favorite band.
I recommend to everyone their Pandora station.
I am now officially a cellist in the Tulsa Youth Symphony and I'm really excited about it.
OMG MY BIRTHDAY IS IN SIX DAYS

And for now, I'm really inspired by the scenery around me;

Good afternoon.

2011-08-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

Morrissey t-shirt - Wet Seal
skirt - thrifted
white keds - thrifted
bag - thrifted
necklace - Forever 21

Ninja post today. ALREADY, I am wearing that stupid skirt that was lost for eternity in my closet AGAIN after not wearing it for 20+ years. Oh well though. Same with the Keds. And those things are majorly falling apart, so I've decided I need to paint them. But that would sooorrt of make me feel bad, because they're really ~cool~ and ~leather~ and yeah. But at the same time all the white stuff is falling off and getting on my skin and NOT COMING OFF.

I felt like a cheerleader in this. Probably because I secretly am. The restaurant pictured above is the Blue Rose, which is actually a pretty hip hop happenin' joint. I wore this to dinner there.

The little blonde curly girl in the second picture with the super fashionista boots is my little sister Sophia, by the way.

K this concludes ninja post I gotta go bye.

The Flaming Lips // Primus

2011-08-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

This was truly the most magnificent concert I have ever been to, and take it from me, as I've been to many, many, many remarkable concerts.

Red Rocks Amphitheater is by far the most breathtaking venue on the planet. You're literally inside the mountains, and if you look beyond the stage, you see the Denver skyline, and it's totally exhilarating and beautiful.

As for my outfit goes, I was getting some faerie princess mermaid goddess vibes that were not going away. So my lovely mom made the investment on this creepy purple prom dress from the vintage store that I've had my eye on for quite a while, and it was perfect. Paired it with this flower halo from a garage sale (I'm addicted to wearing that stupid thing, it's ridiculous), and doused myself in glitter, and bam. Of course, had to REPRAZENT with my Flaming Lips tote, and my Lord of the Rings ring.

One of the coolest parts, is that my dad and I scored one out of only FORTY exclusive show posters that were signed by Les Claypool of Primus and Wayne Coyne of the Flaming Lips. Of course, the pricetag was a bit hefty...BUT JUST LOOK AT THIS GOLD AND TELL ME THAT IT'S NOT GREAT.

This magic is definitely going in the middle of the living room to scare off any unsuspecting guests.There is no excuse to NOT have skulls and pink ladies with fluorescent rainbow rays projecting out of her birth canal as your mantle piece.

An official relaunch.

2011-08-12T11:57:00.000-07:00

Blogger, I don't know if you remember me, but my name is Sydne Rain.

And I really don't know how to do these types of things. Like, awkward re-introductions. I don't know how to do those. So I think I'm going to just skip it and get on with it.

Basically, all I have to say is that IT'S GOOD TO BE BACK TO THE BLOGIVERSE. That, and this blog really, really needs some work, and I'm going to work and dedicate as much as I can to it to make it better in all the ways possible. I'm really excited about blogging again, and over time I can assure you that posting quality will get better, but for now, I'm getting back into the groove, and you'll have to excuse me.

So let's get started with some outfit posts.

sweater - thrifted
shirt - some girl gave it to me. IT'S STAR WARS.
skirt - thrifted
socks - Forever 21
shoes - OG white leather Keds, thrifted.

shirt - Thrill Kill Kult t-shirt, bought at the concert.
shorts - made from a pair of gross jeans
tights - Urban Outfitters
shoes - white Keds, thrifted
scarf - Forever 21
hoodie - Forever 21
bag - The Flaming Lips tote, from Dwelling Spaces.

Last week my family and I plus some family friends all took a trip up to Denver, Colorado to catch an amaaazing concert that was going on at Red Rocks Amphitheater, Primus and the Flaming Lips. It was one of the best shows I've been to, the venue was mind blowing.

It was 60 degrees the whole time we stayed in Winter Park, so I took full advantage of this and busted out my tights, sweaters, and scarves and embraced it. In my home town, Tulsa, Oklahoma, we're having record-breaking heat right now. Most weeks every day is 100+ plus. So while I felt sort of guilty for being in beautiful weather while everyone else was suffering...I didn't really. Actually I bragged. But whatever.

So anyways, I have a lot of posts I'm excited to share, and hopefully I can regain my audience, and I can get this going again. I'm following up with posts from the show!

bloglovin!

2010-06-22T21:01:00.000-07:00

WHY HAVEN'T I BEEN WITH BLOGLOVIN ALL THIS TIME.

follow my blog with bloglovin!

i've been missing out. here i am, though! yay!

so since i have this random post with my bloglovin link, i feel compelled to add some music too so i don't bore anyone to death.
i didn't realize until now that i had done my blog a major disservice.
there is not a single flaming lips song on my blog.
i mean, surely there are songs on my flawed song of the day list i gave up on, but i've never really posted any of the flaming lip's stuff before! what the hell, sydne?! your blog is named after one of their albums! *facepalm*

without any further ado, i present to you one of my favorite songs off of their album transmissions from the satellite heart. a song i would sing along with my dad as a 6-year-old girl dressed in a yoda t-shirt and a skirt. good times.

the flaming lips certainly played a huge roll in my early childhood and they continue on in my later childhood today. does that make any sense? later childhood today? because i'm by no means anything more than a child, so...
i give up. my language is off this morning.
anyway. the first time i officially saw the flaming lips i was seven years old, in first grade. it was during their yoshimi battles the pink robots tour, they played in oklahoma city. i'm pretty sure i had the time of my LIFE, because i had never screamed their lyrics off while perched on my dad's shoulders ever so loud before. balloons, lights, the sound, the crowd, the amazing energy in the arena, it was all so much to taken. if you've ever been to a lips show, you'll know that it is QUITE an experience. their shows always move me to tears, be it their almost overwhelming energy or their songs that hold so much sentimental value in my heart. after the show we stayed until the crowd filtered out and the lips were packing equipment and hauling things out. we stood in front of the stage and yelled out for steven drozd, the guitarist of the lips, but he didn't seem to hear us. then wayne coyne, the frontman and founder of the flaming lips, emerged from the backstage and we called his name. he came to us and my dad introduced to wayne. after he asked me how old i was, i remember coyly responding with "...seven..." (i was a little starstruck. duh. a 7 year-old girl meeting the most influential musician in her life?), he was elated and said that he saw me singing along to every song knowing every lyric and he thought it was superb. i can't remember much else, except that when we got back to the car i realized that one of my life goals is complete and the radio was playing the flaming lips as we climbed in.
so i felt pretty special.
anyway that's my account of my first flaming lips show.

everything is going wrong, but we're so happy

2010-06-21T20:22:00.000-07:00

shirt - forever 21

necklace - forever 21

shorts - thrifted

shoes - thrifted

tights- urban outfitters

had dinner with my demented family at the brook today. i love my demented family. my demented family rocks. they would hastily agree with me that we are indeed, demented.

i have the best song ever to share with you guys! i love this song, i love this song. i love this song. it makes me car dance like no one's business. it also makes my mom car dance like no one's business.
and i suggest that everyone listens to it!
listen to this!

the wombats - let's dance to joy division

i'm tellin' yeh. who doesn't love dancing to joy division.

you can't look in on one way eyes, ohio

2010-06-21T19:48:00.000-07:00

took a trip down to ohio land for four days with my dear lovey/little sister jerakah, and had some fun in st. louis for two days. i loved cedar point, it wasso great going back. i rode rollercoasters that broke world records and made even the most cowardly turn heads. so awesome. i bought three pairs of fake hello kitty nails, and a hello kitty lanyard for the next school year. yes, i know. we also went to an island called put-in-bay. have you ever heard of put-in-bay?! cause i sure as hell hadn't. but it's a pretty cute place. it's like an itty bitty town, according to the wikipedia machine, only 36 families live there, with a population of about 160. lovely, eh? lots of wineries and pubs there. we rode around on a golf cart everywhere.

st. louis was freaking AWESOME. who knew that place is so trendy! so hip! so happenin'! so trendy! i saw the cutest girls and boys walking round the streets of "the loop", the shopping strip/district thing. i stopped by the coolest stores with the most interesting and weird stuff i had ever seen. it was divine. i wanted to stay. there were also a lot of cute clothing stores, one in particular stuck out to me, one that had a bunch of 50's-esque dresses that reminded me a lot of pin-up girls and stuff. unfortunately i was pretty much broke, so i left with a few postcards to stick on my wall and nothing more. but oh well. we also went to a graphic novel store in which i nearly had a heart attack over. it mainly consisted of a bunch of awesome manga and anime, but there were ALSO a bunch of really great art books and graphic design books. and also extremely adorable indie boys that worked there. not only these, but CELL PHONE CHARMS TOO. and attached to my cell phone is a good 5 pounds worth of hello kitty cell phone charms. so i picked up a couple. i also bought a kimono book which i instantly fell in love with before i even opened it, and bettie paige stationary which i couldn't even live without. we also ate at a place called cafe mochi that served delish japanese food. i had the best udon ever and shrimp nigiri. yummy yummy yummy.

i'm so glad to be back home though. <3

didn't want it, didn't need it, but we knew that we could steal it.

2010-06-11T07:52:00.000-07:00

shirt and necklace - forever 21

shorts - express

fedora - vintage

clunky 90's boots - thrifted

hmm, yesterday. i actually through this together without even knowing what i was throwing on. but then i was delighted to see that my slapdash blind dressing turned out to be pretty nice.
i went and had lunch outside with my mom and my little brother. i ACTUALLY ATE A SALAD AND HAD AN ENTIRE BOTTLE OF WATER, i honestly don't know what's gotten into me. i just all of the sudden feel like eating healthy. i even turned down macaroni and cheese, my one and only weakness in this world, and i just don't know how i did it. insanity. pure insanity!

but yeah! i also have something UBER COOL to tell you guys, tomorrow morning at a ripe and early 4 AM i will be taking off to sandusky ohio to cedar point! hell yeah! for those of you who aren't familiar with the glory and enchantment of cedar point, it is an amusement park that holds the record for the most roller coasters in a single park, and is named "the roller coaster capital of the world". basically, it is the best place on this planet. i know i say that a lot, but i mean this truthfully an honestly, i have never been to a better place. me being the huge roller coaster fanatic that i am, it's basically heaven.
i've been once before, exactly a year ago with my friend olivia. this time i'll be going with jerakah! i cannot wait to go back.

so i will be gone from tulsa from saturday, june 11th, to saturday, june 19th.
here's a list of AWESOME stuff i will be missing while i'm out of town:
-- the tulsa blogger/twitterer meetup
-- tokyo in tulsa, a japanese culture convention
-- the secret handshake at the marquee
-- cheap wednesday burgers at mcnellies (my favorite weekly ritual)
-- and probably MORE glorious things that i don't even want to talk about right now because it would make me sad. but really, the best things to happen in my city and i'll be in sandusky?! i mean, i'll be soaring 420 feet going from 0 to 120 miles at a 90 degree angle on the top thrill dragster, but still! ugh, the pain. but oh well, there will be another blogger meetup, the secret handshake always comes back in town, there's always the wednesday after next, and yadda yadda. BUT THE TOKYO IN TULSA THING I'M REALLY UPSET ABOUT.

anyways, yeah! i don't know if i will have internet access or not at my hotel, but if i do i will most definitely be updating as much as possible. if not, i will see you guys next saturday!

oh, but i got fantastic new shoes the other day and i'm also dyeing my hair turquoise today, so i may just have to show off for you guys later on today.

I CAN'T FORGET MUSIC THOUGH!
i spent a lot of yesterday cleaning my room (which i will also have to show off. i love my room, it's like my baby.) and during which i listened to almost ALL of the modest mouse discography, so i'm in a very modest mouse mood now and they're almost all i wanna listen to now. so let me share with you JUST A COUPLE favorites:

i love modest mouse. i love them good.

until later, toodles!

cosmetical yummy goodness.

2010-06-07T14:53:00.000-07:00

surely you guys could care less about this. but whatever, i did it anyway! :D

-What foundation do you use?
bare minerals, in medium beige. i love that stuff. i prefer to use a lighter foundation and a heavier concealer so it looks a bit more natural rather than plastered on.
-How about concealer?
right now i use true match concealer by l'oreal in cool, however i don't like it much. after a while, even after using smashbox photofinish primer, it slides. and i hate that. it gets all smudgy and stuff. so no, i'm done with it. i'm currently wanting/trying and failing miserably to save up for the concealer by amazing cosmetics.

-Do you know your undertone color?
like, olive-y yellow. no, pretty much yellow.

-What do you think of fake eyelashes?
i wouldn't ever wear them on a daily basis. maybe to add a bit of drama for a special occasion or something, but nah. actually, i WOULD wear fake eyelashes every day if they were by shu uemura. see here:

-Did you know that you are supposed to change your mascara every 3 months?
no, and i refuse to do that. i do not want to spend thirty something dollars on my favorite mascara every three months. no thank you.

-What brand of mascara do you use?
givenchy phenomen'eyes.
best. mascara. in. the. world.

-Sephora or MAC?
ohhh, toughie. i love sephora, but i love mac. i really love mac. i guess i'll say mac.

-Do you have a MAC Pro-card?
UNFORTUNATELY NO. :'(

-What makeup tools do you use in make up application?
concealer and kabuki brushes by bare minerals, mac 266, mac 269, sephora eyeshadow brushes, shu uemura eyelash curler and eyelash comb.

-Do you use make-up base/primer for the eyes?
yessss. urban decay primer potion. i would drink that stuff if i could.

-For the face?
mhmm, smashbox photofinish primer. again, i could drink that stuff if i could.

-What is your favorite eyeshadow (color or shade)?
ho hum, i really love smoke and diamonds by mac, because it's nice shadow for when you want a really casual and low-key smokey eye without looking like a raccoon. i haven't really been wearing much colour on my eyes lately, but i do enjoy wearing turquoise every once in a while.

-Do you use pencil or liquid eyeliner?
liquid liner all the way, and sometimes gel liner. right now (since i ran out of my mac liquidlast) i'm using some crappy stuff by mabelline. though lately i've been borrowing my mom's sephora liquid liner and that stuff is pretty swell. if i can feel non-guilty about it i might convert from liquidlast to sephora. as for pencil liners, i usually use them on the bottom lid. though i don't wear pencil liner very often.

-How often do you poke your eyes with an eyeliner pencil?
EVERY TIME. i don't know why. it makes me sad though. and it makes me look like i'm crying. i don't cry.

-What do you think of pigment eyeshadows?
the fallout is a PAIN to deal with. unless you use a primer i wouldn't use pigment. but when you do use a primer and want some good solid color/want a rainbow on your eyes/want some serious drama, yes, totally.

-Do you use mineral makeup?
um, bareminerals, yes.

-What is your favorite lipstick?
eh, i'm not much of a lipstick wearer, to be honest. i have a couple mac lipsticks, but i'm more of a gloss person. my 2 favorite mac lipsticks are sweetie and capricious. capricious just kind of amplifies my natural lip color and sweetie is more of a girly light pink color.
and actually, i bought a lip ink pen by tokidoki in a wine color, and after a full week it was almost dried out. i was like noooo. waste of fourteen dollars.
i condition my lips with mac lip conditioner first. that's usually the first thing i do before my full face so by the time i'm ready for anything on the lips they'll be conditioned and ready to go.

-How about lipgloss?
i love lipgloss. as stated above. i usually do mac lipglosses, my absolute FAVORITE that goes with anything is a lusterglass called pinkarat. it's perfect. i also have a dazzlesglass in money, honey but it's really very sticky and quite annoying to have on your lips. but i'm also a fan of the lipglosses that come in the sephora pallets, they have good colors and they stay on significantly longer than mac lipglosses. AND i'm a huge c.g. bigelow fan, i exfoliate with their lip exfoliaty stuff and also smear on their ultra minty lipgloss all the time. the pink tinted stuff is pretty magical too. it tastes wonderful. i would definitely eat that stuff too. i'd substitute it for syrup on my pancakes in the morning.

-What is your favorite blush to use?
lovejoy by mac, and i use the mac blush brush. and then the pink stuff in my sephora pallete. eh, i'm not much of a blush person. i usually wear lovejoy in fall and the pink stuff in spring. right now i'm on the pink stuff...obviously

-Do you buy your makeup on ebay?
hah, no. i'm too lazy to ebay shop. most of my makeup comes from sephora, mac, my mom, and occasionally CVS.

-Do you like drugstore makeup?
YES i do. i want to live in the makeup section of cvs.

-Do you go to CCO's? (cosmetic company outlets)
wat.

-Did you ever consider taking make-up classes?
psh, nah. i learn everything i need to know from michelle phan.
...but i wouldn't mind going to a class, no.
actually, if i didn't already have future plans i would most definitely be a mac makeup artist. and go to mac school for it and everything. hey you guys, i love mac.

-Are you clumsy in putting on makeup?
nooo, actually. only when i'm extremely lazy and i just throw on bare minerals. i take my time.

-Name a makeup crime that you hate?
streaky foundation, crappily drawn-on eyebrows, the "too much makeup" thing, fallout, creamy eyeliner, the makeup eye-boogy things that happen in the corner of eyes, clumpy mascara, ORANGE FACES, cakey/horribly blended in foundation...um, i pay too much attention.

-Do you like colorful shades of makeup (lipstick,eyeshadow) or neutral ones?
neutral tones. when i do my daily makeup look, i think fresh-faced, simple, natural, and sophisticated. however when i'm going to a fun outing or something, i go nuts. or some days, i just wanna wear pink eyeshadow. but i don't do a whole jeffree star thing every day. i would die.

-Which celebrity always has great make up?

scarlett johansson. she can either look classy and polished or sexy and feminine by the change of lipstick. she always has beautiful makeup.

SKINCARE

-How many times do you wash your face daily?
twice, in the morn' and at night.

-What skin type do you have? (dry,oily,combo)
usually my skin is pretty dry, but in the summer it gets hopelessly oily. i keep oil blotting sheets on me at all times. cause lawd forbid i look shiney.

-What is your current facial wash?
eh, it changes depending on the current state of my face. for breakouts, i use clean and clear, and then for when my skin is oily i use a cleanser by avon.

-Do you exfoliate?
mhmm, about twice a week, at the most. usually when my face gets really dry or when the texture is looking rough.

-What brand do you use?
uh, avon clearskin, and clean and clear.

-What moisturizer do you use?

for whenever my skin is oily or in good shape, i use a sage & citrus moisturizer by mineral transformations, but for when my skin is super dry, i use olive oil! contrary to popular belief, olive oil is super amazing for your skin and it's noncomedogenic. which ROCKS. i love olive oil. i would totally drink that stuff.

-Do you have freckles?
yes, across my upper cheeks underneath my eyes and over my nose. like in a little line. i think they're cute. i love freckles. but they're only really visible in the spring and summer for when the sun gets to them. they really stand out when i wear bronzer.

-Do you use eye cream?
naahhh. i should though, i'm not as gentle as i should be with my eyelids and such.

-Do you or did you have acne prone skin?
YES and it's terrible. you've gotta love the teen years. some days its not so bad, and others i won't leave the house. it's pretty sad. it makes pretending that you're pretty difficult.

-Did you ever have to use Proactiv?
i did for a while and it worked pretty well, but after i ran out of the cleanser i stopped using it, plus my formula is pretty outdated, i plan on getting the new fancy formula.

-If you could leave the house using just ONE make up item,what would you use?
on good skin days, eyeliner. on not-so-good skin days, concealer. yes, i know.

-Could you ever leave the house without any makeup on?
eh, i've done that a couple times. like when i go to quick trip for less than five minutes. other than that NO NEVER.

-Do you think you look good even without any makeup on?
no, i don't really. i can always find something to dislike about my appearance, all the time. i've never been comfortable looking completely natural (as in, no makeup, no hair color). i love doing the no-makeup makeup thing all the time and wearing natural makeup, however i could never go without it.

-In your opinion, what is the BEST makeup line?
i don't think there is a best, in all honesty.

-What do you think of Makeup?
i think is is an excellent way of fooling people to think you're beautiful and flawless, and a way to make other people more self-conscious and jealous, and a perfect way to spend an unnecessary large amount of money on something that will be washed off at the end of the day. and it's also a good way to forget what you really look like.
you guys don't know this, but this is what i really look like:

but you wouldn't know because i wear ~awesom3~ makeup, you see. makeup is like plastic surgery except it's temporary, it can fix the imperfections and make you look flawless, or it can make you look worse than before. :D

the dead weather :: sea of cowards // gogol bordello :: trans-continental hustle

2010-06-06T22:02:00.000-07:00

yes! so today i FINALLY got around to listening to two albums that were recently released that i've been wanting a chance to sit down and listen to for a LONG time. so i've come to give my "review" over the 2 albums.

let's start off with the dead weather.
damn, i love them. ever since i saw them on jimmy fallon performing treat me like your mother in august of last year, i've been a pretty big fan of them. i love most of jack white's acts, plus there was this REALLY hot chick up front from that awesome band the kills. basically, i knew that this was definitely a supergroup to love.
horehound was a really, really awesome album. i was expecting nothing less from them whenever i sat down to listen to this.
the first track, "blue blood blues", was a very good kickoff to the album. mainly consisting of jack white's vocals, it was nice to hear that familiar gut-wrenching, rough guitar. i was already into it. about thirty second into the song i was nodding along. good stuff. there wasn't much of a climax to their opening song, i hadn't felt like i had quite broken into the record yet. but, so far, so good.
and here we get into the rock and roll with the next track, hustle and cuss. there goes allison mosshart's grungy vocals, groaning and creaking through the song. satisfactory. a little more low-key in terms of the hyphy-o-meter (y'know, when you get that feeling when you wanna do some serious hair swinging, and flail around and totally mesh into the music? yeah, that kind of feeling. i got that a lot with horehound.), however really good nonetheless. i started getting into the feel of the album, which i perceived to be a little more on the down-low, not as screamy kind of crazyness like in the song "bone house" on their first album.
and then "the difference between us" started. it kind of confused me. it's probably my least favorite song on the record. i wasn't to impressed.
"i'm mad" was a little interesting to listen to, with more narrative vocals from alison mosshart and her cackling/scary laugh thing was a trip. but still a good track none the less.
"die by the drop" and "i can't hear you" were two good, down and dirty, nitty gritty tracks that are definitely pleasing to the ears following their first album. what you'd expect from them, something really, really good.
"gasoline" and "no horse" were two tracks that i recognized instantly from their show that sarah and i went to back in april. those are two good favorites. on "gasoline" alison's ferocious, growling, ear-piercing shouts worked perfectly for the track. the same goes for "no horse", amazing guitar, and alison's vocals just complete the song entirely.
"looking at the invisible man" is sadly one of about two songs in which both jack and alison are singing simultaneously. in my opinion, jack's and alison's voices are absolutely perfect together. like, they were completely created to vocalize together. it's beyond perfect. like, OW. yeah.
"jawbreaker"! my favorite track off the record. really. just listen to this live version. i definitely have this on repeat.

and then "old mary", sung by jack white.

...and then...

"that was it?"

the album only ran 35 minutes. hm. 15 minutes shorter than horehound. i was a little taken aback. i was definitely expecting more, but more as in quantity. each song lasts about two and a half minutes to three and a half minutes. i mean, i'm quality over quantity all the way, but when it came to a stop so suddenly, i guess i was just a bit disappointed. i wanted more, i didn't want it to be over quite yet.

so, in summation, good album? yes. better than horehound? i don't know if i would say so. i don't know, maybe it'll take a few more listens before i fully adjust to it, but i still dig their sound, which hasn't changed at all, not a bit.
but i like sea of cowards. i like it a lot. i'm very happy with it.

now, gogol bordello, trans-continental hustle!

for some reason it took me way too long to get this album. i do love me some gogol, after falling in love with the song "start wearing purple" off their album (which i regard as one of the best) underdog world strike, i was smitten with them for some time. then seeing them at d-fest 2009 confirmed my love for them. perched on a friend's shoulders, i had quite the time of my life. (I'M PRAYING THAT I CAN SEE THEM WITH PRIMUS IN AUGUST IN KANSAS CITY)

i won't be going over this album as i did with sea of cowards.

what i can say about this album that it's the same feel, the same vibe, the same jive, the same sound that gogol bordello has always had; but something about this album is just a bit different. i can't quite put my finger on it, if something is missing, or maybe they sound a little more polished than in albums passed. whatever it is, i still hold the belief that trans-continental hustle is a really, really good album. whilst it lacks more hardcore "punky" riffs in some songs, it's gogol bordello nonetheless, and they've produced an album with several tracks that are well deserving to be put on the gogol elite song list. this isn't one to pass up.

p.s.: my blog will be a lot less music infested soon, i promise. XD more fashion, sydne! fashion blog! get it right!

when i was young i was a star amongst zeros

2010-06-05T18:41:00.000-07:00

get your dancing shoes on because i have a present for you ALL:
an embed element doused in delightful jams coated in sugary insane alcohol infused indie underground parties and synthesizers and computers packed with illegally downloaded music mixers!
you all should appreciate that.

okay, f'real, i made a little playlist of some nice indie electro next level beats for you all to feast your ears on. i can't help it, i live with dj's. which is really awesome, because i have access to some flippin' sweet music, i never have to listen to the same thing. that is, unless it's one of those songs you put on repeat just because you can't help yourself.

these are some songs that my mom and i play in the car with the windows down and turn up really loud so everyone can hear us from a mile radius. my mom is cooler than yours.

have fun with this, get on your dancing shoes, and dance to this. because i sho nuff did while making this.

right on!

as for now i'm currently in the process of putting together another mood/picture board, which i hope to post soon. we'll see how this go. i'm in the midst of moving, however i'm not putting anything on delay, any more!

we thought you were different, now you know we're not so sure.

2010-06-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

INTERNET, INTERNET. IT HAS BEEN SO LONG. INTERNET.
i was not expecting to be absent so long! i feel like my life was put on pause after my internet was down for SO. LONG. but i'm back now, and i have some catching up to do.

so a couple fridays ago, the twenty second to be exact, was a day that so many girls fresh into their teen years were looking forward to at my school, the eighth grade prom.
yes, it's stupid. yes, it's a little silly. but the word "prom" for this setting is far too formal for this formal dance. in which, by the way, could it even have been called a dance? no, not exactly, something tells me the word "orgy" would sadly, in this case, be more appropriate.

but i digress, the so called "music" that was played, whether it be that miley cyrus song about there being a huge party in the united states, or some pop autotune-infused jam about swagger, it was always fitted with a bunch of teenagers mercilessly rubbing their private parts together. it never ended. one would imagine that a slow dance is a turning point during an event where everyone is low key and shares a nice sweet moment with a partner or significant other in which they dance face-to-face in a sort of couple's embrace (look at dat der accidental poetry. AWWE.). however, when one attends a middle school dance, it would probably raise some hell when parents see that their children are having more of a from-behind dry humping session with at least 5 different boys during such a "low" key song.

anyways, it was an event, all right. a bunch of satin, synthetic, and tulle-clad girls huddled in their little groups to sit around and talk about who was wearing what, who came with who, who was going to spike the punch with a little booze, and who was going to whose party after the dance.

personally, i enjoyed myself much more before the dance then after. getting ready and finally being able to wear the dress i designed and worked so hard on early into the year with purpose was very satisfying and fulfilling, i wore it with the utmost pride.

black nails, pink hair, smokey eyes, sequins wedges, i set out with my best friend chase to a small dinner with some friends. after some chow, giggling, and tipping our waitress an extremely unnecessarily large amount of money, we hopped into a limousine with a snazzy interior. blaring britney spears and bugging our driver with our broken singing, we felt pretty damn fabulous riding around in our fancy garb and bumping and sliding into each other every time we hit a stop light. six girls and two boys emerged out of that limousine, and then there we were. after waiting a retardedly long time to get into the room we finally did.

dress - by yours truly

necklace, shoes, bracelets, earrings, hairbow - forever 21

tights - urban outfitters

nail polish - black satin by OPI

purse - that white house black market purse i died for

i didn't really know what to do when i first walked in. i greeted some people, smiled, and hung out a bit, and drank a couple cups of punch. i didn't stick around my "date" the whole time, we parted ways when we got there and met up intermittently. a few times i found myself sitting around watching all the kids on the dancefloor flail their arms in the air, grope their mate's butt all too often, and then watch all the chaperones mindlessly chat and not really do what they were sent to do.

so i sat outside a lot. usually by myself, though i had a few casual conversations with some acquaintances. though for the most part, i was a little disappointed, seeing that a lot of people were having fun with all their friends, and i was just sitting around, puzzled as to what i was to do.

i got quite a bit of compliments on my dress, which i was most pleased to hear, and some didn't believe me whenever i told them i made my dress.

"sydne! i will totally buy your clothes."
"thank yoooouuu!"
hearing stuff like that is awesome.

i danced to some britney, and stayed around kyre most of the time. y'know, my model, kyre? she was the best dressed, in my eyes. she looked HOT!

and here's my friend luci mae and i. she looked very pretty, she went with a more elegant and toned down look, it suited her nicely.
so, it was a little disappointing, but i sure didn't leave without a smile.

music, you guys! music!
since summer is FINALLY here, and next year i will be an Official Annoying Freshman, i decided i would make a lot more playlists for you cats. but for now, i'll leave you with a song that was going through my mind during that entire last day of school:

this is the radiohead cover of the song "ceremony" by joy division/new order (whatever have you, whoever is familiar with new order slash joy division. i need to write about them someday soon.) and personally, it's my favorite cover. it's so great. it's one of the best covers i've heard. and i don't just say that because it's radiohead. well, maybe i do. but it's wonderful. phil selaway kills the drums and thom yorke's vocals are always so soulful/emotional. i'll stop being sentimental and using slashes in all of my sentences now.

so listen to that song because it's wonderful.

okay! so that wraps up this post. i'll have pictures up with my "date" later. but currently i'm working an indie electro DANCE-AY playlist for you guys with the help of this DJ dude i live with named don! or by his persona, falkirk. in which, i would like to bring up a song he's been working on for the past couple of days, sitting in his little corner, playing with his fruity loops program.

i give you: his opus, his life's work, his slavery thus far....

SMASHY NICEY. (he got the name from an old british sitcom. what a card. COUGH.)

Falkirk - Smashy Nicey by Falkirk

anyways, it's a cute little dancy tune and i suggest you all listen to it as well! damn, i don't have many followers, but i get some nice feedback from you kids, some of you seem to like the music i post. so thanks! yeah! right on!
bye now!

my first vlog.

2010-06-03T21:08:00.000-07:00

this.

oh my goodness waaahhh!

2010-05-22T10:43:00.000-07:00

O LAWD, you guys! it's been what, like ten days?!
okay, okay. let me get my list of pathetic excuses together. ahem, here we go:

end of school! exams, pretty much everything, what have you. lots of crazyness happening with school. onward.
events! seeing family! all kinds of stuff has been happening lately. storms which have been destroying homes and taking lives and little sister's ballet recitals have definitely been a time kill.
i'm lazy!

so let's get back into gear with a TOTALLY unneeded life update through pictures!

recently there were a crapton of art festivals in my town located in the downtown area, and it was an awesome time. a lot of starving artists and crafts people sell their work. i scored a skull necklace, siouxsie sioux bottlecap earrings (which i DIED for) and a friggin' awesome zombie t-shirt!
i also got my face painted in an odd fashion that attracted a surprising amount of attention. a total of 7 people stopped and asked for a picture with me or of me. lolohkay.

i told her what i wanted and she did a fantastic job. YES I AM WEARING THAT DRESS AGAIN DO NOT GIVE ME CRAP IT'S COMFY.

my new earrings are definitely the best thing to happen to the world.

and this cute skull necklace is pretty awesome too.

i also recently went to a civil war battlefield allllllllllll the way in missouri and got some pretty cool shots.

look, creepy surgical tools! :D

and now look at this totally incognito picture of me all up in the ~zone~ with my life escentuals; red diamond tea, my uber awesome duct-taped (because i rock out too hard) headphones, mai 120 gig irpod, hello kitty bag, paper and a certain kind of pen (i'm picky about my ink flow.) and totally faded-out haircolour.

as for tonight, it's the school formal. yess, uahaha. girls are making an unnecessarily big deal out of it. i designed my own dress for the occasion which i have worked so dilligantly on. maybe later i will post a bit of a preview before i take off. i really can't wait to show off the pictures. i'm going with my best friend chase, who took me to the first official "dance" i ever attended, and yadda yadda. anyway, we're good friends. whatever. hopefully it will be a good time. i cheated and submitted 11 music recommendation lists instead of one and each had REALLY good music on it. so hopefully mine stuck out of all the radio fodder music all the other kids selected and they'll play some of my tunes.

right now i have pink dye in my hair which i was supposed to rinse out like fifteen minutes ago.

i can't leave you guys without some music! no one will probably care, but i've created a youtube account in which i will upload ALL of my concert footage to and will create playlists with to share with you all. so subscribe if you also have a youtube account and wanna listen to whatever playlists i decide to build up on there. currently i'm working on an indie electro/dance rock playlist with the help of my mom's boyfriend who is a dj himself. so right on. um. internet awkwardness...

just click here for my blog youtube page. yeah, um, okay.

eventually it'll be less dead-tree infested. [[[LIES!]]]

okay then, i'll blog later. i have even MOAR crap to do which completely cuts into my interwebz life. damn!

i see songs in shapes and colours like nuclear physics or pottery ovens

2010-05-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

broken heart beats sound like break beats - los campesinos!

listennn

mood board

2010-05-11T18:25:00.000-07:00

1. allisson mosshart - unknown

2. unknown

3. the lychee side

4. je suis michelle

5. unknown

6. trendland

7. by me.

5. bunny jennyy at flickr

6. unknown

7. trialsanderrors at flickr

and you just have to listen to this song in order to understand this mood board, because i said so.

do it, right now.

milos fare.

2010-05-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

yesterday evening, may ninth, was milos fare at the marquee.

yep, that's sarah from her lovely blog bad penny!

i wasn't even aware of who milos fare was before i found sarah's blog via lookbook. though i am pretty in the know when it comes to the local music and art scene i hadn't heard of them before, and i was surprised to know they had opened for the plain white t's and conquered the main cain's ballroom stage TWICE. i know plenty of bands that have maybe gotten lucky enough to play the crystal pistol, the next door neighbor to the legendary cain's ballroom, but not too close to playing the main stage. i checked them out, and i'm extremely glad i did.

when i ran in just 2 minutes before they began playing with my gangsta friend brenna, i was a little disheartened to see that there was a no-crowd crowd. maybe thirty five people at best in the intimate setting that is the marquee. i was thinking there'd be at least a little more crowd, but to my surprise, no. the venue seemed to fill up with silence between songs, which i gladly filled with an "i love you sarah." that was responded with a "i love you sydne." right back.

sarah has got PIPES. not kidding. you wouldn't expect such a strong, ground-shaking rock and roll voice coming from such a teeny tiny girl. it's kind of a surprise when you hear her belt out these solid vocals come straight from this girl. she's definitely talented, has some awesome stage presence with her very allison mosshart-like persona, and i was thoroughly impressed with her and the entire band's performance. her voice kind of reminds me of hayley william's of paramore.

they opened with their song "wallflower" (which is currently up on their myspace right here, give it a listen!) and the head bobbing began. the guitar was awesome, with a good hearty solo right in the middle of most songs, just as rock and roll is. they had some good sound going. if you see milos fare, you'll be surprised, seeing this band of highschool kids going up there and performing as naturally as if they've been performing for years.

but, their bassist did give me a little bit of a puzzled look as i got on the floor up close to the stage and got in my photographer mode to take pictures, but i'm not surprised seeing as the lack of a mushy crowd in front of the stage.

right in the center of the crowd was a particularly cute dressed girl whom i recognized from sarah's blog whom sarah introduced me to, ashley. i also met sarah's mother and father. :)

time for awesome outfit pictures! whoo!

sarah and ashley!
and now time for some totally awkward shots of sarah and i!

we were kind of having a conversation during these pictures. of course, as everyone knows, i'm a terrible model and i seem to never know what to do with my hands. so i made fun of myself the whole time. lots of laughing and legitimate smiles here. i addooorrreee sarah.

"this is how we make out!" - sarah

as for my outfit:
dress - mother's maternity dress (ha! two maternity dresses in a week! i'm not pregnant. XD)
belt - forever 21
socks - i'm pretty sure they're my mom's
shoes - thrifted (the shoes i always wear)
cardigan - forever 21 (i live in this cardigan)
necklace - forever 21

in conclusion, whenever you don't know what to do with your hands, pretend you're a monster.

LINKS!

milos fare myspace

sarah's blog, bad penny

woah, super huge post!

and if you promise to stay conscious i'll try to do the same

2010-05-06T20:12:00.000-07:00

i know you have a heavy heart

i can feel it when we kiss

and many men stronger than me

have thrown their backs out trying to lift it

dress - mum's old maternity dress.
belt - forever 21
these shoes.

i found this on the ground at my school today.
note the grammatical errors.

"immaturity never lasts, it will soon be everyone's past. have fun while you're young and don't grow up too fast."

may the fourth be with you.

2010-05-04T16:06:00.000-07:00

HAPPY STAR WARS DAY, FOLKS.

Chuba je chuzu muna ja? ;D

now enjoy a 10 year old photo of me as queen amidala, the queen of naboo for halloween of the year 1999.

fat star wars nerd babies for the WIN.

Ohta su marvalic plesodoro.

take a second to enjoy this website.

(no seriously, enjoy it.)

ttyl. i'll be spending my time watching the empire strikes back and the phantom menace all day.

(this is my blog. i can nerd post if i want to. :P)

HATERS GON' HATE.

welcome home, my love.

2010-05-03T17:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday i met my soulmate at white house black market, and we will share a beautiful and lovely future together.

i know! my first thought was mcqueen spring 2010 too. so when i saw it i had to pick it up and cradle it in my arms like the precious baby it is for a while.

someone at school commented promptly on it, "you women! your bags are either unnecessarily too huge, or just tiny!" fashion over function, fashion over function. i just keep my camera (for SOOPER DAY DOCUMENTING 4 BLOG omgz), my mobile phone, a mirror, eyeliner, and my other precious baby that is my eye-pod. so yes, it's wonderful. i had to have it. now i have it. i'm really happy now. i had a really hard time browsing through the store without wanting everything. but obviously since the purse screamed and called my name and we were a love-at-first sight case, i had to splurge on the little thing (oh my, i sound like a shopaholic. i'll just stand over here...).

anyhow, as for music, i like jose gonzalez, bon iver, and feist right now, because i'm in a spring mood. i'm also rediscovering my love for modest mouse. though i SHOULD be listening to the new gogol bordello album at this moment, but i'm too busy doing other things like marveling over my red hair (O YA), looking at more gothic lolita bible scans, listening to more jose, bon iver, and feist, and continually kick my little brother out of my room. but i mean, modest mouse and gogol bordello 4EVAR, but for some reason the other three have also been a priority. so i arranged a playlist for you all to enjoy. :) i'm thinking i'm going to keep making playlists to share.

also, everyone should check out mrs.stephenfry's blog here. it's good for a laugh. even though i don't fully understand it and who is behind it...it has some twitter humor and humor in general. it is very humorous in a humorous fashion.

today i am spending my time looking at pictures on the internet, picking up my room, opening all the windows in my apartment, listening to more music, playing some music on the guitar, missing a friend, and being nostalgic.

photoshoot!!!

2010-05-02T16:25:00.000-07:00

YES!
YESSSS!
enthusiasm! lots and lots of enthusiasm!
why, because i have pictures from the photoshoot, that's why. what other reason would i be so happy besides the fact i have a brand new white house black market bag that is my new best friend?
seriously, this is a milestone for me. i could not be more ecstatic right now.
the following 2 images are the images i've chosen to be blown up and on display at the gallery my piece will be showcased at:

and these here are the photos i will not be using, but are amazing photos nonetheless.

a ll photos by julie shelton. who is the BOMB.
here's her facebook!
here's her myspace!

and for some behind the scenes photos.

bill kaulitz in balmain, rad hourani, and...a whip?! YES PLEASE.

2010-05-01T12:55:00.000-07:00

oh, yes, yes indeed. i love bill kaulitz. i will never NOT love bill kaulitz. of course, i have posted about him a couple of times before, but i must do it again and update what this fine gentleman has been wearing lately. he always looks perfect. why wouldn't i blog him more? good question. so here we go.

bill's style is ever-evolving, always wearing what he wants, and doing his own thing. recently he's been sporting more white in his usually all grey and black garb, which does give a bit of a refreshing element to what he usually wears.

new to his closet, would be some rad hourani, which i believe is perfect for him. rad hourani has always created sharp, dramatic, fierce clothing with lots of black and interesting silhouettes. rad has always been one of my favorite designers, i'd kill to wear anything of his. :O
here is some rad hourani goodies for you all to gawk at:

spring 2010

fall 2010
(photos via style.com)

back in november 2009, hourani released a line named RAD, which features 15 unisex looks, with the jagged edges and straight pants hourani is always noted to produce, though less "runway" and more casual for every day wear, and trading in constructed leather strips for denim.

needless to say, the androgyny and unisex concepts are perfect for bill.

he's also recently been sporting balmian spring 2010, and not as recently, dior homme. and is that a whip around his neck?! oh. um. yes, please. please.

ahh, yes, a fashionista he is.

i have walked a crooked mile

2010-04-30T19:18:00.000-07:00

i have sinned and i am so confused

and i am a wicked child

wonky comments, eh?!

2010-04-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

Ive tried several times to post a comment on your blog but it cuts the bottom of the word verification off and it wont let me :( - anonymous

yes, yes, it seems as if so, i've gotten a couple emails regarding this, and i'm not sure why. HOWEVER, i just did a little bit of tweaking in my settings, so it may work now. comment away, folks, i wanna make sure if it works or not!

fear me not,

2010-04-29T18:18:00.000-07:00

for i am an asian baby.

P.S.: i need to thank ALL of the lovely new followers i have gained! you guys rock so much and i wouldn't be blogging if it weren't for my followers. at this point my blog is still a pretty humble little page, however its popularity has grown amazingly in the past week and i can't thank every single viewer enough. it just gives me something to be giddy about to see all these people who dig what i post and stuff. i've hit half a thousand views, and that's awesome! thank you, thank you, thank you.
:D
and also a HUGE thank you to my wonderful and amazing friend sarah from bad penny! she's been promoting me throughout a few posts and it's just so sweet of her to do something of this kind. i love you to death, sarah!

follow this girl now! ♥

it's not easy, being green.

2010-04-27T19:52:00.001-07:00

i love designing. it is something i want to do for the rest of my life. for my final piece in my silk screening class, i designed something of my own that will be displayed in a gallery at a local museum. i can hardly wait, i'm so excited for the gallery to be up! :D

a lot of hard work, blood, sweat, and tears went into my final piece for my class and the gallery. i wanted to do something all my own, and by god, i did. i am pretty proud.

as for my piece, i wanted something that was punky, with a touch of chic and modern added. the vest was tailored precisely, i added a lot of heavy zippers to give the punky look to it, and added a couple studded belts, and the leggings with her converse. the skirt was particularly tough to work on, lots of seams an an interesting silhouette. i was pretty inspired by alexander mcqueen's spring 2010's skirts for my skirt, and i was listening to a lot of the dead weather when i came up with it. so there had to be sooommmee kind of rough aspect added to it. :)

a photographer was hired to come and shoot the designs.

my LOVELY mother did my model's hair and makeup. this was my very first time designing something for someone/something besides myself, i've never had a model or a photoshoot before ever, so this was pretty big for me. i couldn't possibly imagine doing this for 24 or more girls. :O that's just beyond me. though someday, i hope to achieve that. my model's name is kyre, she has beautiful skin and is just a gorgeous girl. i was nervous about her modeling, because i didn't just want some pretty face going up there and not know what to do in front of the camera, but as soon as the photographer was behind the camera, kyre got up there and she knew exactly what she was doing. i found out shes had modelling experience! :D yes!

that girl *finger snaps in air very christian siriano like* WORKED it. i was so happy. i was the director, however, and that was pretty difficult for me considering i am not a model at ALL. i have a little photography experience, though i have more experience with candids than posing. but thankfully since my model had prior experience, she knew exactly what i was going for as i yelled out random words.

lots of love. right here. love. lots of it. right here.

yes, of course my eyes are closed, are you kidding?! the camera loves me.

dress - gap kids
tights - forever 21, i think
black cardigan, a.k.a. my one and only love that i will never give up - i'm pretty sure forever 21
black heels - don't even ask, i don't know.
headband, necklace - forever 21
i have a camera in my hand, btw.

note that these are just snapshots taken from my mom's gigantic screen phone. whenever the photos are ready, i will definitely be posting them, and when i get my camera usb, i'll post the other in-the-process photos as well. :)

les claypool

2010-04-27T18:37:00.000-07:00

friday night, april 23rd, was les claypool.

for those who are unfamiliar with les claypool, he is the bassist from the band primus.

wow, just WOW. les put on a WICKED show. that's the only word i can think of to describe it. there was les claypool himself, a cellist (LOVE! i know, right?! i was standing right in front of him, that dude had mad skills. i want to be a rockstar cellist like him someday. i just wanted to reach out and grab it from him and take him with me. my cello is not as cool as his.), and two percussionists. the show itself was eerie, the changing lighting, and the fact that the 3 other members besides les were wearing these INSANELY disturbing and creepy masks throughout the show, which added the effect to the show quite a bit. they all were suits, and mr. claypool played some interesting instruments, including the upright bass, and a little-known instrument called the whamola. and speaking of the whamola, as les entered the stage with his famed instrument, he came out wearing a horribly creepy demon monkey/ape mask, and scared the shit out of everyone. his tall lanky self walked like jack skellington across the stage in a monkey-like mannerism, carrying his whamola similarly as you would a scythe. genius man, that les claypool.
my favorite part of the show was the near 30 minute jam session/rivalry between the two percussionists. by god, can they play their instruments. it was awesome. i should soon get some video footage from jerakah of the show for all to see.
those who do not have a very diverse taste in music would probably not appreciate les claypool's solo work the same as others do. i've been listening to les claypool and primus for a majority of my life, so seeing him was just too great. i had been wanting to see him for years. his solo work is very odd, a little surreal, and just overall different.

to get a bit of a taste of les claypool's solo work, listen/watch a bit of this.

before the show...

note: in the first picture, i was being a monkey. ("eee eee, ima monkeeyyy."
in the second picture, i was being a lion. ("I'M A LIIIOOONNN!!!")

oh, of course, this is my lovey jerakah with me. she looooves les claypool/primus. of course we had to go together.

marilyn manson t-shirt - vintage
skirt, headband, necklace, tights - forever 21

shoes - thrifted

hello everyone, i'm beginning to accept the fact that i'm completely unphotogenic by posting these horribly unflattering pictures of myself all over my blog.
i love dem tights. BUT THEY TURN MY FEET BLUE. i'm not even kidding, it's terrible.
jerakah also looked really cute too, so i told her i would blog her.

i promised her i would get her as close as humanly possible. and i did, we got right behind the barricade. she had the best time ever, i'm glad my girl got the spot she wanted. ♥

so yeah, um, that show rocked. like crazy.

the dead weather

2010-04-24T10:02:00.000-07:00

thursday night, april 22nd, was the dead weather.

i got plenty of pictures of allison mosshart (OOOHHH), but every time i attempted to get a decent picture of jack white, some kind of tragedy with the lighting happened or SOMETHING happened to cause me to not get a decent shot of him. the photography gods seemed to be angry with me for wanting a photo of him. jeezus.
i met up with sarah from bad penny at the show. she's such a cutie! she's the sweetest girl ever, and we had a blast dancing and singing and doing some major serious hardcore hair swinging crazyness. we both showed up with the same necklace, and a black fedora. hah. great minds do think alike. read her post about the show here. we are indeed going to be great friends. ♥

i'd say we looked pretty damn cute. well, she did.
by the way, someone please tell me WHAT I AM DOING WITH MY RIGHT ARM.
for the show, it was spectacular. the lighting made it extremely, extremely difficult to get good pictures. the hazy blue they had gleaming through the stage made it almost impossible to even see them at some points. the sound was amazing though, they were super great and i was thoroughly impressed. there was quite a crowd, it was pretty packed. but thanks to my amazing crowd-navigating/surfing ninja skills, jerakah and i were able to squeeze to the center of the ruckus where sarah was.
i even took videos. yes, yes, i know. you're welcome.

now! we can't forget this is a fashion blog, no?

blazer - thrifted
belt, shoes, tights, tube skirt, necklace - forever 21
siouxsie and the banshees t-shirt - vintage (thank you mommy.)

Do you photoshop your pictures? If you do what do you use? - anonymous

indeed i do. i'm a fan of messing with colours and playing with black and white threshold. i do a lot of different stuff, really. maybe in the future i'll write a post over it, if anyone else is interested.

answerin' the asks and deliverin' what's up.

2010-04-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

I saw you at Booker t. Maybe? You're Ivy's friend...kinda been creepin' on your blog since i saw you on lookbook so..haha:) - anonymous

bingo right on! you got it, anon.

you are so cute. - anonymous

zomg. arigato. :D

ask me crap or whatever! ---->

anyways, last night was les claypool, and at the moment i'm doing some SERIOUS INTERWEBZ BLOGGING MANIA crap, which consists of:

uploading 2 youtube videos at the same time
photo retouching
blogging
and all kinds of other stuff that makes me sound important.

so beware because i'm about to dump a LOT of stuff onto this page. right on!

you have forsaken all the love you've taken

2010-04-22T14:29:00.000-07:00

i found a few pictures today that a friend of mine took while we were playing around with sidewalk chalk. i like them because they're so awkward and weird.

hahaha, yup. i'm not going to consider this a look post (since this was lazily thrown together just to go outside), though if you're interested, the tights are from forever 21. :)

as for music, tonight is the dead weather!

for those of you who are unfamiliar, they are a supergroup composed of the raconteurs, the kills, and queens of the stone age. allison mosshart (LOVE!), jack white (LOVE!), dean fertita, and jack lawrence. here is the first song i heard by them, and one of my favorites:

they are really awesome. i'll be attending the show with some friends as well as my mom and step mom, and will be meeting up with the fabulous fellow fashion blogger sarah from bad penny. (check out her blog, because she is the bomb.) it's going to be a good time, for sure.

as for tomorrow night, i will be seeing les claypool! i am SUPER excited to be going to that show, i've been longing to see him play for years, and i'm so excited that i'm finally going to see him. :D
some more music goodness, i've recently fell in love with a band called black rebel motorcycle club. i just have to share this song of theirs:

it's so good! it's been stuck in my head for days.
so, i'll update on the concert tomorrow, till then! ♥

hey girl! awesome awesome outfit on your latest post! so, i just realized that you're from tulsa! you should have said hi at the mall! haha thats crazy! we should plan a fashion event together this summer in tulsa. (:

2010-04-21T00:52:00.001-07:00

thanks so much! oh, hahaha, yep! i'm a tulsan too. :) i know, i should've, but i'm shy. but yes, we totally should, that would be awesome. i'm in. :)
about the comments, other people have emailed me/ask boxed me the same thing. i'll try to see what's up and fix that.

Ask me anything

the non-post post

2010-04-20T20:38:00.000-07:00

hello lovelies. um, okay, i haven't posted in well over week, and i must apologize. final exams have been taking place, and i've pretty much been INSANELY busy this past week that i've been somewhat absent. i know this post kind of sucks, but whatever.

anyway, i'm designing a new piece (that i am evidently screen printing on for my screen printing class! :D) that will be on exhibit at a local museum, so i will be sharing this soon, as well as other pictures, as soon as i locate my camera. i have a few extra pictures to post, upload, yadda yadda, just SO little time. so excuse my lateness, i just gotta catch up with the real world for a bit instead of my internet world. hah!

burns burns burns

2010-04-11T17:27:00.000-07:00

sweater, tights, necklace, bracelets, ring - forever 21
radiohead t-shirt - W.A.S.T.E.com
skirt - can't really remember
shoes -thrifted

spent last night at larry's house. he was having a bit of a party, jerakah was there with me. it was a good time, we ran around woodward park, swung on the swings, and laid around in the grass. then i jammed out with larry and this other guy who is good friends with larry...i can't remember his name. :( but i got to play a beautiful gibson, and learned a couple new songs.

how do I shot web?

2010-04-08T23:07:00.001-07:00

...whut.

Ask me anything

VNV nation

2010-04-06T19:56:00.000-07:00

last night i caught VNV nation at the marquee.

the show was A-MAZING. i was so glad i got to see them. they played songs i hadn't heard in literally about 9 years. i was listening to vnv when i was just a wee chap. i got to shake the frontman's hand and chat for a brief moment, so that was cool. he was a funny guy, he was very enthusiastic about the crowd. it was such a good time.

i'll post what i wore tomorrow, going to bed now!

the 138th annual miyako odori, 2010

2010-04-03T21:04:00.000-07:00

as everyone probably now knows, i am an avid japanese culture/geisha enthusiast, and i am here today to announce to you all that just a few days ago on the first of april, the 138th Miyako Odori kicked off as a beautiful display of the traditional arts of japan. through the entire month of april, this annual dance runs 60 minutes every day, four times a day.

like everyone says, to fully understand something you must know the history of it, right?

the Miyako Odori began in 1872, the idea for the odori (which means dance in japanese, miyako being another word for Kyoto, the ancient capital of japan.) came from the most respected Haruko Inouye, a master dance teacher, and Jiroeman Sugiura, the proprietor of an ever-famous tea house (that is still in existance today, the Ichirki ochaya, or tea house). the governer of kyoto made it official, the dance launched in march 1872.

a total of 204 geisha (maiko and geiko, jikata and tachikata alike) perform the Miyako Odori, which includes the music and dancing. the odori is internationally admired and credited as one of the most beautiful showcases of the traditional arts in japan.

it is one of my sincerest dreams to someday travel to japan and attend a performance of the miyako odori.

the kimono are absolutely stunning. a majority of the maiko; apprentice geisha, wear a blue dancing kimono, the upper body embellished pink, white, red, and orange flowers (cherry blossoms, if i am correct) and white leaf branches, the sleeve and bodice designs are recognized by certain years. the same kimono will sometimes be used different years due to the high cost of the kimono (an entire ensemble can easily cost up to 100,000 united states dollars.). the geiko; full-fledged and experienced geisha, wear different costumes depending on their roll in the dance.

mboogiedown's beautiful photography of the miyako odori
miyako odori official website
miyako odori english page

the odori is a sight to see, spring in japan is just perfect. :D

tonigghhttt

2010-04-01T20:12:00.000-07:00

you'll have to forgive for the blurry pictures, it was already dark outside and the lighting in my apartment is pretty terrible.

shirt - self made
shorts, ring, necklace, flower, bracelets - forever 21
tights - couldn't remember for my life
shoes - thrifted

tonight was dinner in celebration and recognition of my grandfather's departure from this world that was 4 years ago. he was the most lovely man i had ever known.
we love ya, poppie.
it was a delightful dinner, and i am retardedly stuffed.
also, i must mention how proud i am of my eye makeup today.

i really like it. can you spot my freckles? XD
AND PLZ IGNORE THE SHINE. >.> it has been a long day.

and this was after about 13 hours of wear, mind you.
i really love my givenchy mascara. have i already said that? :)

tree photography

2010-04-01T19:52:00.000-07:00

because you guys know me and my dead/alive tree love...

view more useless tree photography on my flickr.

song of the day DUMP!

2010-04-01T18:43:00.000-07:00

here is a HUGE DUMP of songs. not just ANY songs, but songs of the day.

*reallyreallyreallydeepbreath*
february 18th - dashboard by modest mouse
february 19th - tame by the pixies
february 20th - bizarre love triangle by new order
february 21st - interesting drug - morrissey
february 22nd - red stars by the birthday massacre
february 23rd - i love you by esser
february 24th - wanderlust king by gogol bordello
february 25th - about a girl (unplugged live) by nirvana
february 26th - fluffy by ween
february 27th - i believe in symmetry by bright eyes
february 28th - poster of a girl by metric
march 1st - reckless burning by jesse sykes and the sweet hereafter
march 2nd - endlessly by muse
march 3rd - landlocked blues by bright eyes
march 4th - mirror people by love and rockets
march 5th - middle of nowhere by hot hot heat
march 6th - ding dang by les claypool
march 7th - across the universe by fiona apple
march 8th - i'm only sleeping by the beatles
march 9th - tiptoe by goldfrapp
march 10th - onion by the heartless bastards.
march 11th - clint eastwood by the gorillaz
march 12th - out of this world by the cure
march 13th - pass the mic by the beastie boys

march 14th - good morning mr. magpie (morning m'lord) by radiohead
march 15th - irish drinking song by flogging molly
march 16th - give up the ghost by thom yorke
march 17th - motion picture soundtrack (radiohead cover) by the vitamin string quartet
march 18th - her majesty by the beatles
march 19th - comfortably numb by pink floyd
march 20th - youthless by beck
march 21st - women we haven't met yet by minus the bear
march 22nd - marching bands of manhattan by death cab for cutie
march 23rd - fire it up by modest mouse
march 24th - phantom limb by the shins
march 25th - great high mountain by jack white
march 26th - false ending by yo la tengo
march 27th - and i was a boy from school by hot chip
march 28th - scatterbrain by radiohead
march 29th - the needle has landed by neko case
march 30th - the district sleeps alone tonight by the postal service
march 31st - strawberry fields forever by the beatles

AND today, april first, has the song i am trying to break your heart by wilco laid upon it.

okay, okay. now i need some opinions about my song of the day list. i would like to know your opinion on it, if you enjoy it, yada yada. basically, just write me about it telling what you think, whether i should continue to post it or not, or just tell me anything about it. it would help me out a lot. :)

hey there

2010-04-01T15:54:00.000-07:00

hellooooo blogger. there's a lot i can update on. first of all, i'll share some photos from the park. it's been super extra beautiful in my town lately and so the park has been a hotspot for the past few days. here are some snaps of some beloved ones and myself:

my mom and i. ♥

jerakahhhh

little sister sophia :)

it's a lovely time.
also, i have been avidly screenprinting, and i'd like to share my screeeeen! :D i'm so happy with it, i can't wait to start screenprinting on my designs. it's going to be fantastic, i feel.

works like a charm, the only thing that i'm REALLY sad about is that the bow didn't quite come out right. :( i'll have to tape part of it off to look right, but oh well. it doesn't look bad, just not exactly how i wanted it. the trees look lovely, though. AND the radiohead crying minotaur! :D i'm really pleased with it. i was so happy when i got it.

okay, funny thing about this red ink splattered all across my bag. i was thinking, 'dude, i wanna splatter it. but i wanna be a little morbid about it. maybe i should blood stain it. yeah, that'd be cool. i'll either do red or some other color.' so i get out the red ink and prepare to do some swatching, but when i open it, there was a leak in the lid and it spattered red ink ALL over my bag. purely accidental, but hey, it's exactly how i wanted it.

so yes. the bag is a bit of a test run, since i've never screenprinted before, i kinda wanted to do some experimenting with the ink and screen and paintbrush and see what all i could come up with, and i can safely say i'm pleased with my little project.

sunday sun

2010-03-29T15:01:00.000-07:00

yesterday i spent a good deal of my time with some friends. i partied at zak's for awhile. cupcakes and guitar hero metallica were involved, and of course, swinging at the park.

crooked wall deco

it was a really good time.
OH YEAH HAY YOU GUYZ I FINALLY HAVE A FREAKING CAMERA!
which means i'm back for good! :D

as for today, it was regular and boring. it was school-filled.
i bedazzled my phone and took a picture of all the crap on my desk in my free period class thing:

I LOVE MY AT WAR WITH THE MYSTICS BAG. <3
dwelling spaces rox

soon i'll be heading on over to my lovely friend jerakah's house for some din-nnerrrr. today:

don't mind the black bar. i have issues with accepting the fact that i'm not a pretty girl.

regarding the song of the day list: I AM A BIG FAT SLACKER
and i will be catching up on that soon. so for today's song:

sunday sun by beck
:)

inspiration board

2010-03-28T09:05:00.001-07:00

spring 2010

betsey johnson spring 2010 rtw

blood is the new black boyfriend t

alexander wang spring 2010 rtw

ruffle tier dress forever 21 luella spring 2010 rtw

right now i love contrasting. wearing a subtle t-shirt with a pastel-colored tulle skirt (somewhat ballerina-like) and pairing it with a leather vest or jacket and some fierce ankle boots. adding black to a pallette of softer colors is key to spicing something as simple as a sundress. personally right now i'm inspired by sweet lolita, a japanese street fashion style that includes a lot of frills, pinks, and anything that's childlike and sweet. though i like to mix these similar styles with a dash of punk, like adding a studded bracelet and some leather to contrast that.
i'm also huge on boyfriend tees right now, loose-fitted looks-too-big-for-you t-shirts. again with my contrasting love right now, i wear it them with skinny jeans and wedges, or tuck them into a circle skirt. i'm branching out of my all-i-wear-is black phase and going for some bolder prints and lots of DRESSES this spring! i have plenty of plans to do some dressmaking and screenprinting, and i can't wait to share what i come up with. ♥

I think your style is really cool. not really a question but whatever.

2010-03-19T17:09:00.001-07:00

why thank you. :D

Ask me anything

oh nooooooo

2010-03-16T22:14:00.000-07:00

this is bad.

i've made a tumblr.

http://sydnerain.tumblr.com/

posting hiatus

2010-03-11T10:34:00.000-08:00

there is a possibility that posting will become less frequent for a period of time, starting today.

there are some things that must be addressed and repaired in my personal life, things that i consider to be much more of a priority than this blog.

though i am not certain that these personal turmoils will cause me to post less or more, it could go either way.

i just want my few readers to be aware that it's a possibility.

thanks.

italy :: carnevale 1997

2010-03-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

view the full set on my flickr here.

is this the way i'll always be?

2010-03-05T21:19:00.001-08:00

dress - thrifted
cardigan, lightning bolt jewel necklace, boots, both belts, rings, earrings (i think) hair piece - forever 21
tights - charlotte russe
black necklace - vintage
studded cuff - hot topic
bag - betseyville by betsey johnson

so today was interesting. it was, ahem, "grammy day" at my retarded little school, where everyone was to dress all nice and pretty and fancy as if they were going to the grammy's. everyone took it so seriously. like some people bought clothes just for this particular day. which i thought was stupid. i just wanted to have fun with it. and i did. whilst everyone else wore some kind of jc penny's getup, i stuck with what was in my closet and literally threw this together and ran with it. my LOVELY mother is responsible for my delightful 'do, which i quite like. i really enjoy having my hair completely pulled back and straight like that. i'm thinking i might keep it like that. opinions, maybe?
i was treated very differently today. i heard lots of "OHMYGOODD SYDNE YOU LOOK SO AWESOME WILL YOU TAKE A PICTURE WITH ME PLZ" (i am now in the memory of 15-20 different peoples' cameras, and sadly i'm not joking) and i don't know how to react to that. it was a little frightening, thus right there is more proof why i would make an awful celebrity.

also PLEASE EXCUSE AGAIN MY HORRIBLE INABILITY TO MODEL OR BE NATURAL IN FRONT OF A CAMERA AGAIN.
i really need to improve on that...

song of the day is middle of nowhere by hot hot heat.

trends of my generation.

2010-03-04T17:03:00.000-08:00

honestly, i can't help but wonder what is going through the sad minds of kids my age who look in their closets in the morning and rummage around for something to wear.

i completely understand that most adolescents are damn confused about crap, concerned about fitting in, concerned about being "cool", and feel compelled to do whatever everyone else is doing so they're not left out.

i have never, ever thought like this. not once in my life before. and i am really, really happy like this. i always say, i don't dress the way i do, do things i do, and say the things i say because i think it's cool or anything, i do it because it's what i want to do. if it makes me happy then bam, hell yeah.

all i can say is do what makes you feel like you, and not what makes you feel like everyone else. that's what's up. and never let anyone tell you otherwise, that you're not legit, or you're just not "in" or cool. because obviously those people who are telling you so don't know what the hell they're talking about, and just don't get it.

also, i'd like to throw in, y'know that pretty thing called "originality?" well, it doesn't exist. originality just flat out does not exist. surely it does in some people, and those people have changed the world in some way.

chuck palahniuk, a notable author, once said:

"Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I've ever known."

this is true. this is saying that we all get inspiration or ideas from other people or things, and those people get their inspiration from other people or things. which is why i believe originality is dead.

anyways, today at my -uniform- school (*shudders*) i surveyed what everyone was wearing. of course.
all i saw was this among the females,

didn't see a single thing different.
all i could think was, "really? you can't get any more creative than this?" i didn't ridicule anyone, i was just kind of dumbfounded that this is seriously what every single person wore.
and then there was me, wore black corduroy pants, ankle boots, a white loose-fitted forever 21 shirt with a black feather design on it, and a white leather jacket. it was a pretty big deal to people. (i also pulled all of my hair back into a ponytail with a slight pompadour, that freaked people out. haha) though i saw it as no big deal of course.
i just keep wondering why kids don't branch out. if you walk around the mall, that is all you would see. lots of ridiculously bright solid colors AND the skinny jeans.
i'm nearly through with skinny jeans. don't get me wrong, i love 'em, but they are so overworn. they're so typical now, you can't go a day without seeing someone in them. i still wear them, but i set guidelines for myself. i don't wear them with ballet flats, or fitted t-shirts. when wearing skinny jeans, i like to contrast the tight fit on bottom with a loose-fitting top, it's very flattering for people who are thin and bony like me and it especially flatters your height. fitted t-shirts plus skinny jeans equals too-much-tightness everywhere. you might as well be naked if you're just gonna wear skin tight clothes. as far as shoes go with skinny jeans, i'll either go with boots, ankle boots, or wedges. typically i just don't like skinny jeans pared with flats or tennis shoes (particularly chuck taylors and fans) because it just looks to...i don't know, stereotypical? i just think there' more creative and interesting ways to wear skinny jeans rather than just throwing some sneakers and a t-shirt on with them.
i guess what i'm trying to say here, is don't be afraid to do something different with what you wear, something you wouldn't normally do. branch out from what everyone else is doing and do something that's your own. it's much more gratifying than you'd think. :)

baika-sai 2010 :: kimono

2010-03-02T14:33:00.000-08:00

((warning: this is likely to be a long post. XD))

february 25th in japan is baikasai, or plum blossom festival. baikasai takes place at the kitano tenmangu shrine in kyoto japan on this day every year. the festival is held in memory of a heian era court official suagwara michizane, who admired plum blossoms greatly.

the kitano shrine is completely surrounded by plum blossoms. from february 10th to the end of march the shrine is ornately decorated and is open for public viewing.

baikasai can be attended by anyone. geisha from the kamishichiken geisha district in kyoto come to serve and entertain guests. tea ceremonies are performed by the geisha themselves for five hours, and green tea and a sweet is served to all the guests.

baikasai is one of the most beautiful celebrations of the entire year. the colors, the geisha, everything is beautiful.

especially the kimono.

i'm sure you're probably wondering how geisha or baikasai has anything to do with this blog at all, and well, it's safe to say that it doesn't. though the subject of kimono is something that i have wanted to discuss since i first began even thinking of creating this blog.

the highlight of baikasai every year is to see the geisha from the kamishichiken perform the tea ceremonies. geisha are traditional entertainers who specialize in performing many japanese arts including classical dance and music. they are noted for their aesthetic that has lasted for centuries. these women on a day-to-day basis wear the traditional japanese dress, kimono. (pronounced kee-mo-no)

my fascination with geisha and kitsuke, the art of wearing kimono, began when i was about nine. for hours i would spend hours relentlessly researching the two subjects, renting books, watching documentaries and more. i even shared my knowledge with kids at school by writing them papers and directing them to websites to visit. by age ten i could tell the difference between a tourist dressed up as a geisha from a real geisha, what type of kimono someone was wearing, i could name all the parts and dressings necessary to wear kimono, tell her name, and tell what stage a geisha was at just by looking at a photo of her.

i have hand-tailored a numerous amount of kimono. it's a hobby of mine. :)

kimono are not couture. They aren't high fashion, they don't become in or out of style, they're not seen on the runway or presented in seasonal collections.they are work of art, crafted and constructed by artists whose lives are predominately dedicated to the making of kimono, and the art of kitsuke, wearing kimono.

iki is a japanese word used to express simplicity, sophistication, spontaneity, and originality. it is ephemeral, romantic, straight forward, measured, audacious, smart, and unselfconscious.
the elegance of kimono is an elegance that will hopefully be timeless in japan for years to come. kimono shape the body to become curve-less, yet constrict the movement of exaggerated body language and refine the smallest of movements, from walking, to moving your arms. the pulled back collar which reveals the nape of the neck is the equivalent of a woman in america wearing a skirt that flaunts her legs.
the style of iki can be seen as early as ukiyo-e carvings from hundreds of years ago and be seen walking in the streets of a kyoto hanamachi.

geisha are most noted for their extravagant kimono which can cost up to about 150,000 usd in total for their entire ensemble.
wearing kimono is not like throwing on a t-shirt and jeans, to wear one and to put one on is indeed an art and skill itself.
kimono are worn in layers. in an average kimono ensemble, there are usually 2 layers. the under kimono (juban) and then the kimono itself. there are many different types of kimono, varying from funeral kimono (mofuku) to a geisha's style of kimono. (hikizuri) there are many, many different requried accessories to a kimono ensemble. more than you'd think!
here is where pictures of the process of putting on a komon (townwear/casual kimono) can be viewed.
most geisha kimono are completely hand made and passed from many generations or are bought exclusively. every stitch is made by hand, even the designs on the silk itself is done by hand by means of embroidery, dyeing, or hand-painting.
every fine detail is carefully observed and perfected when creating exuberant and beautiful, timeless kimono.

the beautiful photos of 2010 baika-sai courtesy of the talented photographer D Lumenta of flickr.

an apology

2010-03-01T21:02:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry.

i might've disappointed some people with this absence.

i apologize.

posting will resume tomorrow.

please forgive me.

humanoid city tour :: day 1

2010-02-22T19:39:00.000-08:00

alright, after some relentless searching i managed to find a couple of pictures of bill's futuristic and potentially dangerous-looking getup designed by the twins dean and dan of dsquared2. :)

i was rather impressed, i can't wait to see what else dsquared2 has came up with for him for the rest of the tour.
whoooo!

humanoid city tour 2010

2010-02-21T09:25:00.000-08:00

haha. well. y'know, i kind of like tokio hotel, a little bit.
cough.

and their european tour (aptly named "humanoid city") kicks off tomorrow. now of course i wouldn't be mentioning this unless there wasn't something freakingAWESOMEOHMAGAAAHH behind it.

y'know, italian label dsquared2? bill kaulitz, frontman of tokio hotel modeled for the designers of dsquared2, dean and dan,for milan fashion week (which i covered.). apparently, the twins of tokio hotel and the twins of dsquared2 are big fans of dsquared2. dean and dan themselves designed ALL of their looks for their new tour.

isn't that awesome?! i cannot WAAIT to see what they came up with. of course i will be covering the kaulitz twins' looks every so often. here are a couple of sketches for the two:

i'm sure it's gonna rock hardcore.

a couple of days ago tokio hotel made an appearance on an italian awards show and of course bill and tom kaulitz were adorned in their dsquared2 wear.

woot!

2010-02-20T19:43:00.000-08:00

BLEACH SPOT ON MY BLACK OPAQUE TIGHTS

NOOOOO AS;DFLJNAS;DLFKJNAS ;DFJLREKFHALEIUFNHL

UGGGHHH

2010-02-20T17:05:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry. i just have to clear this up about my blog's title.
my blog is NOTTT affiliated or inspired by the song by that one artist that was written for twilight. it is not.
as a matter of fact, i have a bits of inspiration from music behind my blog title.

in 1993, the flaming lips released the album transmissions from the satellite heart. it's one of my most favorite albums by them. thusly it is named in honor of the album.
the explanation for the random crazy marks of /:_[] and the like is easy to explain...

useyourbrainuseyourbrainuseyourbrain

ps: radiohead and the flaming lips. hahahahaa i think i'm bipolar.

please don't kill me.

2010-02-17T18:00:00.000-08:00

or throw sticks at me. i've gotten an email and texts and people come up to me and blabber to me concerning my song of the day list, which i have been HORRIBLY slacking on. i've come to the rescue with the updated list. and i am making a promise that i will keep up with it much more consistently than i have been. i'm sorry!

let's see...where did i leave off...

february 3th 2010 -- gifted feat. kanye west, lykke li, and santigold - n.a.s.a.

february 4th 2010 -- lost cause - beck

february 5th 2010 -- emily kane - art brut

february 6th 2010 -- was posted

february 7th 2010 -- wake up - arcade fire

february 8th 2010 -- is this it - the strokes

february 9th 2010 -- converging the quiet - the crystal stilts

february 10th 2010 -- cross the dancefloor (chromeo remix) - treasure fingers

february 11th 2010 -- treasure - the cure (in memory of alexander mcqueen)

february 12th 2010 -- wrecking ball - interpol

february 13th 2010 -- all for the best - thom yorke

february 14th 2010 -- when under ether - pj harvey

february 15th 2010 -- evil- the flaming lips

february 16th 2010 -- idioteque - radiohead

february 17th 2010 -- funk dat 2010 - oh snap

so there you have it. also, i would like to point you into the direction of my twitter, (clicky linky) where i normally post my song of the day daily. sometimes i'm lazy, but i'm putting that to a stop. so if you're interested in checking up on the lovely song of the day, go for it.

wheee.

(((links tomorrow.)))

artwork

2010-02-16T14:10:00.000-08:00

hello hello.

many of you probably know i am an avid art person. i like to draawwl.

so i thought i would share a few things.
i honestly don't believe they're all that brilliant, at all, whatsoever. XD

....
i like dead trees. XD
also, i'm currently taking silk screening classes that revolves around fashion. yaaay. so of course i'll be posting stuff. and so with that i would like to share my screen print design.

dead trees, yes, i know. don't make fun of me. i like dead trees. get over it. the trees, the heart, the bow, and my signature are all done by hand. the crying minotaur is an image from the internet by stanely donwood, who created the little beast for radiohead artwork purposes, thus the crying minotaur is widely recognized with radiohead. whee.
here are the two original sketches that were scanned and remastered:

yep yep, i'm excited. as far as i know the screen will be created next week, and then the week after i think i'll finally be able to print with it. so excited! :D

um.

2010-02-14T12:22:00.001-08:00

the subject of love frightens me. i have my reasons, plain and simply.
though i feel i should at least acknowledge the fact that today is supposedly valentine's day.
i never understood this holiday. or why it's even a holiday.
one day out of the year shouldn't be the day to show someone you love them.
that should be an everyday thing.
thus i have no idea why valentine's day even exists. i've never liked valentine's day. i usually just pass it on as another day. which is what will be happening today.

also, i would like to point out the significance of the paper heart i'm holding in the photo above.
it was made for me by a fellow named zak. he cut it out of notebook paper and marked alllll over it with sharpie. i've had it for nearly a year now, and it's still in near perfect condition. and i plan on keeping it for the years to come. i love little gestures like that.
i thought he would like to know this.
XD

happy chinese new year, everyone.

ps. i didn't cut my hair off. even though i've been threatening it. it's all pulled up into a massive pony tail in the picture. sydne still has her hair.

christian siriano fall 2010

2010-02-14T08:02:00.000-08:00

i'm a siriano girl. i've always loved all of his edgy creations, his whimsical personality and his awesome sense of humor. he's a cute little dude.

i was soooo excited to view his fall 2010 collection. couldn't wait. when i first began browsing the photos, i'm not gonna lie, i just half heartedly skipped a few that didn't catch my attention like a few others did. that's something i never do when it comes to christian's work.

there are quite a bit, however, i absolutely love and would wear in a heartbeat. the knitwork pieces he created were wonderful, the pattern was chic and it looked fantastically cut. and the pants, the tailoring on them was so perfect. i honestly would kill for the pants. really.

formspring.me

2010-02-12T21:32:00.001-08:00

How did you come to find my Tiny Short Stories on twitter?-Matt

oh, just by browsing favorites of someone elses' twitter, i came upon it, read some, and fell in love. :)

Ask me anything

thrifting, today.

2010-02-12T10:33:00.000-08:00

oh, today is planned to be fun. hopefully. a little thrift shopping and being lazy on this school-free friday.

howdy.

rest in peace, alexander mcqueen.

2010-02-11T15:03:00.000-08:00

the entire fashion industry and the general population has been mortified and shocked by the tragic news of alexander mcqueen's suicide that happened just today.

the world has truly lost one of the most fantastic creative geniuses to ever live.

in my eyes i saw him as a truly talented designer, and inspiration to so many people.

his loss is one that cannot be replaced. the news of his loss has caused me great sorrow and grief. his brilliant, wonderful, and original talent and work is something that is only seen once in time itself.

alexander mcqueen's designs were often described as "outlandish", "bizarre", and "otherworldly". he is noted to be favored among lady gaga, who frequently worn alexander's creations to events and shows alike. much of his clothes are worn by celebrities on and off the red carpet.

"Who knows, perhaps after flirting with death too often, death attracts you. There was always some attraction to death, his designs were sometimes dehumanised. I found his work very interesting, never banal."
--Karl Lagerfeld

here is some work i personally favored from his recent spring 2010 collection.

rest in peace, alexander mcqueen.

fabulous people : edie sedgwick

2010-02-09T15:41:00.000-08:00

okay, not gonna lie.

edie sedgwick, in all reality, was far from actual fabulousness. like, as far as being a human being goes. edie was way, way not right in the head, and by no way am i praising her anorexia or her crazy drug use.
so, edie (pronounced ee-dy, mind you) wasn't exactly a fabulous person, but she had fabulous style. :)
i'm sure some people reading this are like "whooo is this edie sedgwick person?" i'll sum her up to you. edie was a superstar under the wing of world renown pop artist of the 60's andy warhol. edie was a model, socialite, actress, and heiress, sort of like today's paris hilton, minus the sex tape scandal. she had been named an "it" girl be various media forms. she starred in much of andy warhol's short films, which boosted her to fame. edie was very glamorous, she had a habit of spending much of her family inheritance on makeup and jewelry and the like (pssh, what rich young girl wouldn't do that?!). eventually, edie and andy's friendship ended in numerous arguments and fights, and warhol was blamed for edie's downfall and submersion into drugs. she stopped doing hard drugs 1971, in june. but that same year in november, edie passed away due to drug complications. she was 28 years old.

kids, don't do drugs.

anyhow, i find myself to be completely fascinated by edie. her style, her makeup, her story, it all intrigues me so much. her style was simple.

her closet staples - -

black tights

leotards

shoulder-duster earrings

boatnecked anything

leopard furs

something as simple as this has made a defining mark on fashion and style today. she was definitely a style icon, no question about it.

formspring.me

2010-02-09T15:28:00.001-08:00

You're makeup is so so pretty...Tutorial: on your makeup???

:) thanks! it's really quite simple.
first, i start off with concealing and applying foundation. i use bare minerals, and i love it. i highly recommend it, as it not only serves as a fantastic foundation, but it is also very good for your skin.
as far as eyes go, i usually start off with a somewhat sparkly and shimmery eyeshadow, something usually lighter colored or silver. i apply it all over my lid, and slightly branch it out towards my brow bone. the silver shimmery eyeshadow makes your eyes look both bigger and more fresh. i like sephora's eyeshadows, because you can control how pigmented the application of it is.
next, i always always always line my upper eyelid with liquid eyeliner. i prefer liquidlast by MAC, because their liquid liner never smudges, even when exposed to a crazy amount of humidity. it doesn't budge throughout the day. i apply it from the inner corner of my eye to the outer corner, i normally don't fan it out because it has a tenancy to look a little too harsh if i fan it too much.
i then line my bottom lid with a silver shimmery eyeliner. it also makes your eyes look brighter, bigger, and somewhat dewy.
i have to curl my lashes because mine stick straight out and have no natural curl to them whatsoever, so i take care of that before applying mascara on both bottom and upper lashes. i use givenchy's mascara in phenomenon black. it is WELL worth the hefty price tag, it's definitely the best mascara i have ever used. it also lasts you a while, so frequent buying isn't necessary. one dip into the tube is enough for both eyes.
eyes = done.
as for lips, i favor MAC glosses and lipsticks, simply because the color is great and it lasts for a good time, so constant reapplying isn't necessary. i usually finish off with the color capricious by mac, or pinkarat lustre glass, also by MAC.
that's the jist of it. :)

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there's no sense in losing your mind before your time.

2010-02-06T12:42:00.000-08:00

sick.
pulsing headache, cold body, hot skin, achey limbs, nearly gone voice, tender muscle, dark circles, running nose, chapped lips, hurting throat, ongoing lethargy, lack of hunger, light sensitivity, puzzling dizzyness, dry hands, tousled hair, old t-shirt, neverending blankets, ceiling fan, used tissues, yo la tengo pandora, and a lovely conversation with brenna.

it's only on the days like these that i feel like i should be out doing something, something productive, something inspiring.

unfortunately, it's quite the opposite on the average the-state-of-me-is-normal days.

i hate laying around in bed by myself. i like company when i'm sick. but whenever i'm better, i want everyone gone. XD

firstly, i must apologize for the lack of updates and interestingness and the overcoming dullness this page has harbored recently. there has lately not been much to speak of, not much to share that would spike interest in another's mind.

i've been quite stuck in bed without much strength or desire to get up, thusly the past couple days have not been favorable ones.

however, yesterday i received some news that i was most overjoyed to have heard: my application to the highschool of my choice has hereby been accepted, and i will be of attendance to a nationally ranked highschool that i've been planning to attend since a very young age starting the next school year. good news for me, i had been somewhat worried that i wouldn't be accepted though i never really did doubt myself.

my grandmother and mother took me out for a celebration dinner and to the mall for a bit of a shopping fit to compliment my achievement, though i regret not being of favorable company yesterday night due to this illness that was beginning to develop. however i was bought a few lovely items despite my not-too-well disposition that i am indeed thankful for. i may share my new purchases later, maybe.

now for music, let's see...

song of the day is not the way by cass mccombs.

formspring.me

2010-02-05T20:48:00.001-08:00

Where did you get your owl earrings? I've pretty much wanted them my entire life.

i snatched them up at a forever 21 in kansas city kansas one year. ;)

tutorial on how you do your nails......pleaseee?

haha, actually, they were fake! they're really adorable, the brand is called sweet tarte, you can pick them up from any drugstore. :)

how do you do your nails??

^^above. :)

Ask me anything

OPI alice in wonderland nail lacquer

2010-02-02T16:04:00.000-08:00

as a surprise present, my mom purchased me the mini OPI alice in wonderland inspired nail lacquers, and my oh my are they darling. they're really really pretty, i think my favorite of the bunch is mad as a hatter, a color that very much reminds me of my american apparel high waist disco hot shorts (yeah, i so have those.) and of course crazy insane disco balls. it's glittery, very glittery. unfortunately pictures of the two glitters included in the set do the colors no justice, and are much better seen in person. though i did take pictures of the swatches i painted on my nails before picking which one i wanted then and there.

i boosted the contrast and lowered the exposure so the colors could be seen a bit better than they originally appeared. however, the color on my ring finger looks pretty similar to the color on my thumb, but really they are rather different. i'll include some actual photos, i just need to find some...

aha. here we are.

absolutely alice

mad as a hatter

thanks so muchness

off with her red

the colors are so cute. :D i love them. i can't wait for the movie! ahhhh! :D

also, tomorrow i will be seeing that one guy at the cain's ballroom. at first i had no idea who that was, but after a bit of research i figured out that that one guy is a one-man band, who actually is pretty awesome. i listened to his music, and i totally dig. looking forward to that tomorrow night!

as of now, my concert calender looks like this:
february 3rd - that one guy
march 15th - flogging molly
april 7th - assemblage 23 (possibly)
april 22nd - the dead weather
april 23rd - les claypool

so far 2010 is turning out to be an awesome year for shows! i've already seen the flaming lips and yo la tengo, i cannot waaaaiiittt to see flogging molly and the dead weather and les claypool. i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY looking forward to them. :D

oh yes, song of the day. it is salty dog by flogging molly. wooooooottt. ska ska ska. i <3 ska.

actually, according to me mum, she took me to a flogging molly show when i was 2. apparently they thought i was really cute, and they gave me a t-shirt! XD

i have such a diverse taste in music. it's all so different. i mean, i embrace nearly every genre of music there is. though there is only one country artist i would ever listen to, and that is johnny cash. i will forever love johnny cash.

oh jeeeezzz.

2010-02-01T13:31:00.000-08:00

i've been sitting around all day. blehhh.

i'm pretty sure every single person i know has seen the yellow technics turntables t-shirt. i practically live in this thing. it's the best hang-around shirt evveeerrr.

gah!! can there be an album of the day?! i cannot stop listening to bloodflowers by the cure. for real, the moment i woke up this morning, i put it on, and i'm still listening to it. it is one of the greatest albums by the cure of all time. besides kiss me kiss me kiss me and disintegration, of course.
okay, okay. i won't pick the whole album, instead i'll just pick watching me fall, its eleven minute lasting goodness is the definition of awesome.
robert smith's soul-filled wailing/meows/moans/exasperated breaths/shrieks = LOVE.

unfortunate situation? i think not.

2010-02-01T06:33:00.000-08:00

well now, it would seem that i'm skipping school today, but that is hardly the case. my mother owns a mini cooper. a red mini, with a checkered rooftop.

the poor thing's doors are completely frozen shut! there is literally no way for us to even access the interior of our vehicle. thusly, we are stuck at home lounging, sleeping in, and enjoying a school-free morning. which is pretty nice, not gonna lie. way better than school.

now now, last night was a fun experience. i visited with an old old friend, a friend of my mother's. shane, his name is. my mother and i ventured out around eight thirty to a pool hall called sharky's, where i did spend a great deal of time back in the day, when i was eight or nine. i actually was an avid player of billiards, and i got okay at it. i had my own pool cue as well, all the people who worked there thought i was awesome, neverendingly playing games against myself and practicing pretty often. but then, i just stopped going to sharky's. last night was the first time i shot pool in six years, at least. it had been all too long. it was an interesting experience.

of course, i was horribly awful at the game. i didn't make one ball, not one. i merely swept the cue ball around the table, it was terrible. my mother, shane, our friend patrick and i played on teams. me with shane, my mother with patrick.

shane and patrick made a bet of 20 dollars to whomever wins. my mom being the ex billiards player she is could easily kick anyone's butt. they made it anyway though. and after shane broke the rack (which was his first turn) he completely cleared the table, leaving every striped ball and the 8 ball on the table. it was AWESOME. though patrick was not particularly pleased. when it came to my turn, of course, my suckage took over and i nothing good came out of my completely amateur shots. hah. shane sunk the 8 ball, and bam, 20 dollars. shane insisted that i get half of whatever winnings we win, considering that well, i am his teammate. they then made it a quadruple or nothing. which means either 80 dollars is laid down, or nothing is, if we won the next game. again, shane completely swept the table clear of solids. 80 dollars! which means 40 for the each of us.

i was paid completely for just sucking at a game of billiards. all this february it was my plan to work my butt off so i could make enough money for flogging molly and les claypool when they come to town. but now, i won't have to work as much, considering my flogging molly ticket is already taken care of. :D

woot!

wiiiinnn!

my room rocks.

2010-01-31T14:04:00.000-08:00

my poster collection includes
the gorillaz - g sides
the flaming lips - embryonic
the decemberists - the hazards of love
britney spears - circus tour (i'm so not kidding.)
yo la tengo newspaper article
vintage the cure kiss me kiss me kiss me cassette tape cover
oh yeah, and my teevee was playing breakfast at tiffany's. i'm addicted to that movie.

also, those black disc-looking things next to my newspaper articles are the insides of those old floppy disks. i love tearing those things apart and taking the weird thing out of it. they look like baby records.

yesterday's song was cities in dust by siouxsie and the banshees

today's song is crosses by jose gonzalez.

genki desu kaaaa?

2010-01-29T10:52:00.000-08:00

just a month after the record blizzard that struck upon my little town of tulsa, we get another winter storm. this time, people are preparing a lot more than last time.

a lot of people are damn tired of all the snow and stuff. me, i like it. it's pretty. and i like pretty things. simple as that.

i have the coolest view of these stunning dead trees in front of my apartment complex, and they just look gorgeous. (those who know me somewhat well are probably familiar with my love and admiration of dead trees.) especially because they're snow covered. they look very pretty.

i love my window. and my room.

the song of the day is closedown by the cure.

yo la tengo // meeting wayne coyne...again.

2010-01-28T13:45:00.000-08:00

last night was the much anticipated yo la tengo show at the cain's ballroom.

it was an amazing, amazing, amaaazing show.

i had a very close-up spot right behind the barricade, about 3 yards away from the three of them.

i was completely captivated by ira kaplan's wicked guitar distortion skills. he would twist his guitar out of tune, pound on the whammy bar, cunningly use his collection of pedals, and would make the noisiest, craziest sounds i didn't even know could be achieved. what really, really fascinated me though was the fact that ira kept his eyes closed through every song, no matter what he was doing, his eyes were closed. when he sang, his eyes were closed. when he just played, his eyes were closed. he didn't open them once except for in between songs and while he switched guitars and talked to the lot of us fans cheering at the gloriousness of their sound. it made me think, dude feels the music. word.

i especially loved the bassist jame's mcnew's overall attitude. he was, in fact, coolbassistdude, who watched ira kaplan shred while grooving with his bass. he looked very unenthusiastic, just as bassists do. it wasn't an 'i'm bored' kind of un-enthusiasm, just an 'i'm cooler than you' kind of un-enthusiasm. he was a big man, with a slightly high-pitched voice.

drummer georgia hubley did what she does best and totally rocked the drums. she was so cool, she sang, and did her duty on the drums, and sometimes, she did them both at the same time. she had a very worn-down almost kind of old look to her, but her voice was so sweet. she sounds exactly like she does on the album.

for their first encore song, they played damage. which is one of my top favorite songs by them. i was pretty saddened that they didn't play sugarcube or deeper into movies or autumn sweater though. :( but oh well, i mean, i did hear new songs from their new album.

view more photos on my flickr page.

i even have a couple of videos to share with you.

((upload more later. internet is running very slow due to the storm.))

oh yeah, and here's what i wore.

shirt - forever 21

shorts - american eagle?

black opaque tights - urban outfitters (best investment i ever made.)

boots - vintage 14 eyelit doc martins

(my mommy loves me sooo much that she lets me borrow her badass shoes. thank the gods we wear the same shoe size [size five, we have baby feet XD] thank you mommy!)

pardon my blatant fug.

ahem. now.

just when i thought the show couldn't get any better.

between songs, i took a glance behind me. just to see if the crowd had accumulated any more then when i first got up near the stage. i thought i saw someone i had seen before, someone familiar. i took a double take to be sure.

but then i realized.

wayne micheal coyne, the genius behind the flaming lips, was standing directly behind me.

i think my heart skipped a beat in that moment that i knew for sure that it was wayne.

without even thinking, i looked up at this rather tall, grey and dark brown curly haired scruffy man in a wool sweater and said, "why hello, wayne coyne."

he looked down and saw me smiling rather jubilantly, smiled back, and said hello back in a very friendly manner.

"i love you. may i give you a hug?" i asked. my stomach was like swwoooooooonnnnn.

"certainly so!" he obliged, and wayne and i hugged.

he asked my my name, and i told him aptly that it was sydne. we shook hands. i then went on to tell him that i attended his new years show and explained that it was my fifth lips show and by far my favorite, and he put his hands together and bowed and thanked me.

i told him that i had met him before, when i was in first grade (i think i was...seven?). he told me he couldn't quite remember (i don't blame him, it was seven years ago, he's been to many many other countries since then), but he thought it was awesome that i was going to lips shows at such a young age. that's when my mother who was standing next to me the whole time greeted mr. coyne, and explained that she went into labor with me at their 1995 september 9th concert at mohawk park for their clouds taste metallic tour. he really, really, really, really thought that was awesome, and exclaimed, "we're connected!" and gave me another hug.

okay. wayne insisted that we're connected. holy cheese, happy sydne. extremely happy sydne.

he then asked me how old i am now, and i told him. he then claimed me as one of the coolest people ever.

lucky?

yes, i am.

unfortunately i wasn't able to nab a picture with wayne because he had to jet before he was mobbed with all the other lips fans that were sure to be there (i mean, the likelihood of the majority of the people at the yo la tengo concert being flaming lips fans is rather high.). but it's okay. cause like, i had one of the best nights ever.

song of the day is us & them covered by the flaming lips and stardeath and white dwarf.

push the button, pull the trigger, climb a mountain, jump off a cliff.

2010-01-26T16:06:00.000-08:00

(((bones.))

i have the inability to be natural.

i. cannot. wait. for. yo la tengo.

there's a newspaper article on them in tulsa world in "the scene" section. i nabbed a newspaper from our school library today (they have them every day fer freeee!) and the article is now happily posted on my wall next to my yohji yamamoto article in french and my giant tokidoki poster.

i did a BUTTLOAD of laundry tonight. sheesh. i'm pretty sure i laundered every article of clothing in my apartment. a lotttt of clothes.

i hate the laundromat. it's like a friggin basement. it's dark and scary and there's weird noises and occasionally there's a dead cockroach in there. it freaks me out. so i have to either sing real loud, call someone who doesn't mind me babbling on and on about something random to keep me from being scared, or bring my headphones and jam out while i do laundry.

...my hands are all soft from the dryer sheets. and they kinda smell like a gallon of detergent. lavender detergent.

song of the day

109. 26/1/09 lotus flowers - radiohead

can you believe that the first month of 2010 is already almost over?

i heard from one of my teachers today that there is a study that january 25th is the most depressing day of the year.

interesting.

i am

2010-01-25T17:13:00.000-08:00

Main Entry: di·shev·eled

: marked by disorder or disarray

radiohead haiti relief concert : it happened.

2010-01-25T15:47:00.000-08:00

god, how i wish i could've been there last night.

(iwanttomarryjohnnygreenwood.)

they played a new song.

lotus flowers.

indescribable.

radiohead raised $572,754 for haiti.

tickets were auctioned off, the lowest price at $475 dollars, the highest at $2000.

celebrities justin timberlake, drew berrymore, charlize theron, daniel craig, and maggie gyllenhaall attended the show.

lotus flowers is definitely my new favorite song.

this is kind of pointless.

2010-01-25T15:14:00.000-08:00

busy busy busy. mainly with trying to completely organize my room so i can rip it up the next day. sigh. i wish i didn't suck at keeping stuff clean. rrrrgh.

anyway, i got pretty naaaiillss.

they're cute.

my wee brother is rather sick today, not cool. haha, i woke up this morning and was like "UGGHHH. we're going to have a normal school week this week. UUUGGGHHH." the kids in my district have been spoiled with numerous days off/events lately, causing us to not have a regular 5-day-straight school week since early december. then, while walking to my chinese class (which is seriously not even a part of my school building, so it takes like seven minutes to get there from my locker. blehh.), some girl mentioned to me that tulsa is expecting another winter storm this thursday. and i was like waitwhathuhhhhh? well, i just checked the weather for my area, annndddd...

holy oklahoma weather batman, it's gonna be fah-reezin' outside in a couple of days.

doesn't surprise me. of course there's going to be gross weather after having nice 60something degree days. and so, there's a possibility of no school on thursday and friday.

and that's kinda really really really really awesome. because i hate school.

so yeah, that was pretty much my day.

i also had a conversation with this kid who sits behind me in my math class.

kid behind me: "so, sydne, what's your song of the day today?"
me: "snowden cover of dreams by fleetwood mac."
kid behind me: "...what is that?"
me: "you wouldn't understand."
kid behind me: "uh, sydne, i never understand you."
me: "this is something i hear daily."
kid behind me: "why do you listen to music that no one even knows? you're probably the only person at this school who doesn't listen to the radio."
me: "there's nothing wrong with that."
kid behind me: "you're freakin' weird."
hahahaha. XD

YO LA TENGO IN 2 DAYS AHHHHH!

song of the day is---

dreams (stutter fleetwood mac cover) by snowden.

2010-01-24T18:47:00.000-08:00

okay. you can't really tell, but i'm sitting on my bed with half of my closet piled on it with my genghis grill leftovers.

believe it or not, every single thing on my bed you see here was on my floor.

i have a big job tonight. ahem...

inbetweendays.

2010-01-24T09:29:00.000-08:00

yesterday was like supremely uneventful. i did, however, manage to spend forty minutes on my eye makeup to replicate edie sedgwick's makeup. (i will be covering edie here shortly.) plenty of silver and white eyeshadow and far to much liquid liner and a set of false lashes later, i had quite accurately achieved edie's look. which was awesome. unfortunately i didn't take much pictures, simply because i was not very...erm...photogenic, yesterday. wait, i'm never really photogenic ever.

dress - vintage 70's jumper-like mod thingy.

tights - somewhere from europe.

belt - somewhere from paris.

heels - predictions

extremely disheveled cardigan/necklace/shoulder-duster earrings - forever 21

i seriously make the worst model ever. i am so awkward. mehhhh.

so i apologize for how...ungraceful and unattractive these particular pictures are.

i also watched the movie factory girl yesterday, which was interesting and a little disturbing in its own way, loosely-but-not-really based on edie sedgwick and andy warhol's relationship in the 60's. i thought the film was really actually quite beautiful, so i dressed very 60's inspired yesterday, minus the belt, because the dress without the belt is a wee bit unflattering on me. weird 70's dress. i wore the black tights, well, because that was edie's signature "thing". as well as leotards, shoulder-duster chandelier earrings, and false eyelashes. i incorporated all but the leotard. i did have a lot of fun with it, that's fer sure.

and now to catch up with the song of the day list because i'm way too friggin lazy:

102. 19/1/09 kids with guns - the gorillaz

103. 20/1/09 brothers on a hotel bed - death cab for cutie

104. 21/1/09 the move - the beastie boys

105. 22/1/09 strange - built to spill

106. 23/1/09 rich girls - the virgins

and today's song, song number 107, is autumn sweater, by the one and only yo la tengo, whom i will be seeing this WEDNESDAY when they come to the cain's ballroom!!! :D

when i heard the knock on the door / i couldn't catch my breath / it is too late to call this off

we could slip away, wouldn't that be better / me with nothing to say, and you in your autumn sweater

this song is like my happy song. kind of. i love it. it's so simple and awesome.

it definitely brings some nostalgia...

i seriously cannot wait to see them here in a few days. i've been wanting to see them for three years now. <3

sccoorree!

2010-01-22T14:37:00.000-08:00

okay, much excitement from me right now. i just found a video of the dsquared fashion show in milan, and, drumroll, of bill kaulitz. :D

enjoy.

the show looked sooo awesome. :D

radiohead haiti relief concert

2010-01-21T17:50:00.000-08:00

this was just released today, radiohead is going to play a show in LA, and all the money from ticket purchases is going straight to a haiti relief charity.

Radiohead for Haiti

We're doing a show this Sunday (24th January) to raise funds for the relief effort in Haiti. The venue is The Music Box Theatre at The Fonda in Los Angeles, doors at 7pm. All proceeds are going to the Oxfam Haiti relief fund. We're trying to raise as much money as possible, so tickets will be sold by auction at this site from 8pm tonight until 11am Saturday (PST):

We're in the middle of recording at the moment, so you'll be catching us on the fly.... but if you're up for it, then we are too.

See you then
x

from phillip selaway

wow. just, wow. and not only will they have this show that will for sure raise so much money for haiti, they're recording. which means, a new album is on the way. so happy right now, can't even talk. i wish i lived near LA. i want to go so bad. :(

fabulous people: bill kaulitz.

2010-01-21T14:37:00.000-08:00

ohh, bill kaulitz. never have i ever seen a human being more perfect. well, aesthetically, that is.

bill kaulitz, 20, is the lead singer of the ever-popular german rock/pop band that is tokio hotel. he is most known for his captivating androgynous look and intricate and glamorous style that has made girls from 10 to whatever-year-old girls swoon. in tokio hotel's early days, he was most noticed for his rather spikey hair, smokey eyes, and his growing collection of jackets. he still is definitely noted for those trademarks. and his gorgeous manicure, of course. (which i have sported once or twice before. hehe.)

also, to clear this now, bill kaulitz does not have a stylist, and claims that he would never hire one. he is also NOT gay, for those who have been quick to judge him.

in several interviews, the singer has stated that he would love to design clothes himself someday, has a tailor to create the clothes he has come up with, and his favorite brand is comme des garcons. much of what he wears is edgy, fitted, and flatters his crazyinsane*cough*sexy*cough*long legs. he really is daring in what he wears, from sporting a kilt when he was eleven or so, to plaid drop crotch pants.

he's modeled for several magazines, and does a damn good job at it too. karl lagerfeld (designer of house of chanel) chose him to be in a photoshoot for german vouge's 30th anniversary issue, and just recently, on the 18th of january, bill opened for DSquared Fashion Event in MILAN. which is a huge deal, because milan is a fashion capital. bill kaulitz is definitely getting noticed in the fashion industry right now, and in my opinion, he totally deserves it. i actually wonder why there isn't more hype than there already is about his amazing and totally bold style.

i could go on and on and on and on and on and on about this kid and how much i totally love him. but i won't.

2008

KILLER GLASSES. :D

wir hören nie auf zu schreien, Wir kehren zum ursprung zurück.

GQ photoshoot, november 2009

GQ Photoshoot, November 2009

DSquared Fashion Show, Milan

he is definitely one of my inspirations, he's just so flawless, so fierce, he really does make a fantastic model. i'll be on the hunt for some kind of video, cause i'm kinda like dying to see his walk.

he seriously makes me want to design menswear. and i really truly do want to design for men and not just for women, that would be so awesome. i love menswear. i really am just blow away by him, all the time. i will definitely be covering more of him. <3

and baby...talk dirty to me. (duh nuh nuh nuh duh nuh nuh nuh duh nuh nuh nuhhhh)

2010-01-18T18:24:00.000-08:00

oh my god.
boredom. funny thing, about boredom. i've heard it been said before that only boring people get bored. i beg to differ. i'd say i'm a pretty non-boring person, and my ways of entertaining myself are probably rather different then the average person's ways, but hey, what's new.
sooo...i had just played a bit of rock band, and had bon jovi literally STUCK in my brain, and i could not get it ouuuttt. so i stopped playing and went to the bathroom. (i am a very absent-minded person. sometimes i get up and go do something and then i just completely forget what the bluh'y 'ell i was doing in the first place. huh. i also just randomly get up and start walking around without reason.) i spotted gloves, a colour bowl, a brush, and manic panic's vampire red hair dye. bahhhh. so i decided i would dye the tips of my hair, just cause i felt like it. so i did. but then i wasn't patient enough to let it process so i stuck my head under the faucet in the bathtub and rinsed my hair.
blahblahblah. well then i go back and start blow drying my hair (which is something i never do) and i just decide i was gonna make BIG hair. cause i like BIG hair. i stuck a few purology products in my hair, and my hair ended up getting really, really big. '80's hair!' i thought. eiiiggghhttiieesss. bon jooovvviii. so that's when i decided i was going to make myself become an 80's glam rockerr. after successfully running all to much wax through my hair to make it look like i hadn't washed my hair in at least a couple weeks (rockstars don't have time to wash their mane.), i busted out the red lipstick and went nuts. then the red gloss, then the liquid liner, then crizz-azy colours of eyeshadow, and some MAC shimmerglimmer for my cheeks, i made myself look like i was hit in the head with nikki sixx's bass.
whilst i admit i didn't necessarily achieve the slightly androgynous look i was going for (is that contradictory? i am a girl, trying to look like a boy who looks like a girl...?), i did manage to make myself look like a phsycobilly punk girl on acid with some CRAZZZZY eyes. but, y'know, i think i'm okay with that.
i turned on my webcam, aaaaaand...

bahahahaaaaa!
dear readers, my name is sydne rain. and i am the biggest dork you will everever meet. :)
p.s. this is not the first time i've done this. XD

p.p.s.: my beauty mark is real. XD people ask me all the time if i draw it on every day or if it's fake, but no. it is alll natural. hahaha

hands down, i'm too proud for love

2010-01-18T13:24:00.000-08:00

mayyynnee, it's so pretty outside today.
it's springtime weather!
we've gone from having massive piles of ice on the ground to this pretty sixty degree day. i drove down brookside today and saw everyone outside walking around and just hanging out. i thought that was awesome. but sigh, here i am sitting on my bed in front of my open window-- indoors. i may go outside and play with my little brother.
so i went to henryetta this morning (at NINE FORTY FIVE. :'(( ), where most of my family lives, and visited my great grandmother, who is a ninja, and i also saw a couple of my cousins, abby and ashlyn. the cutest little girls ever. they follow me around everywhere. it's so cute.
...wait, come to think it, i think everyone in my family is a ninja.
including myself.

onesie - heritage 1981

high waist shorts - forever 21

heels - predictions

that's the jist of it. i went pretty simple today.
i've been listening to a lot of lykke li today. it's just a lykke li day. i love her soooo much, she's so cute! and her voice is also adorable and elegant at the same time. so it's only appropriate that song number 101. should beee....

101. 18/1/09 let it fall - lykke li

makeup makeup makeup

2010-01-17T16:44:00.000-08:00

boyyyy do i love makeup. i couldn't survive the day without it.
so i must share something awesome. i bought my first MAC lipstick yesterday, and with my own money too! XD i'm so proud of it. i love the color. i wanted to go for something that was semi-dark, that was pinkish, but not too pink, and brownish, but not too brown. and then i found the perrrfect one.

it's my new baby. and it is my favorite new addition to my humble collection of cosmetics. actually, i'm going to share with you my humble collection. cause i'm kinda proud.

everything is kinda grouped. all the sephora stuff in one place, then MAC, then bare minerals, then smashbox, then miscellaneous brands, then lancome, then love&beauty (by forever 21), then britney spears pallet, then givenchy, then eyelash tools.
hahahaa, i know. big makeup brand names for a fourteen year old child. blessed, yes i am.
i must tell though of the mother-of-all mascaras.

this stuff is sincerely the milk to my cereal. it is the best mascara in the world. no competition. it also, is my baby.

so yeah. that's about it. but wait, my sister demanded that i take a picture of her with my makeup, so here to fulfill her wish to be apart of it:
don't let the cuteness fool you. ;)